Struggles (L.H)

meds ,meds,oh look even more meds!

"lukee! your package is HERE" shit. I was really hoping my meds that I called in wouldn't make it.fml.

   "I'm coming I'm COMING"I March downstairs shirtless and all since I just woke up and there I find all the one direction boys and my boys yelling at the t.v. for the soccer game today.

   "where did you put it Lou?"she leads me into the kitchen to the box that says 'fagile/medical" on it . she hands it to me and reads the paper that comes attached with it.

  "well since you haven't took anything today you can start it now or in the morning depending on you. if I were you I would wait till tomorrow because some of your new meds they prescribed will make you a bit tired."

  the doctor had came last week with the physiologist to check on my mental state from what had happened and I told them my anti depressants and anxiety meds weren't really working ,so they are putting me on some stronger ones I guess.

"Ok I'll start them tomorrow..I don't know why they didn't just take me off of them ,they don't change how I feel"

  "well it's going to take time,I mean without them you're a zombie Lucas ! you only come out for food ,bathroom,and the shows!" I guess she's right ...but with them I don't see any progress either.

   "I'm the same with or without them Lou"

"Atleast with them you actually get up." I couldn't argue with her about that one...oh well looks like another night in isolation.

    ****backstage after their set*******

 

  "luke can I come in?" I'm currently sitting in the dressing room scrolling threw Twitter as the boys are somewhere ...probably messing with security.

"sure Stella come in!" she comes in  and sits across from me...she looks upset.

  "what's wrong Stella" I put down my phone to give her my full attention as she just sighs and looks into my soul.

  "well I've ... noticed that you've been really more depressed than usual...I wanted to know if u were ok ?"

"don't worry about me Stella ,I'm fine trust me it's just one of those days today.", she nods as I smile sweetly and then the boys barge in with the security mad as fuck.

      "luke make sure these three minions don't go anywhere but HERE!"

  "sure if course what did they do now?"

"Why don't you ask them?" the boys start to laugh and the security guards leave.

   "okay fuckers spill"

"Hahaha well I took all the hair dye and I poured it on the floors along with the marbles that lux has laying around...and OMG hahah"they all kinda just fall on the floor laughing along with Stella. everyone seems amused but me.

   "how do you not find that funny bro didn't you see how fucking pissed Paul was !?"

"non of this amuses me I'm going to go get a soda "

with that I leave everyone .

I go to the  pop machine and a few girls are there but surprisingly don't really do anything but stare at me...shy?

then I finally realise one of those girls is Claire.

    Claire Johnson.Claire fucking Johnson.