Struggles (L.H)

MOM

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        mum is going to fucking kill me.

  I'm so fucking dead I'm dead I'm dead.

"Luke,is everything ok?" Calum asks me getting me out of my thoughts.no nothing is okay...Que 'im not okay'by MCR

"guys I don't want to be mean but,I gotta clean before mum comes home so uh I'll meet you guys later.."

  "okay Lucas, meet us at five stellas house!" Ashton says leading them out my door.

      then there was one.as soon as they left I blasted" of mice&men " throughout the house and start cleaning...this isn't going to go so well...

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    it's so bloody...I feel numb..I'm not gonna make it to stellar I don't think.

it's like five and I'm in my room hiding from mom.she beat me again ,this time because I didn't finish the tasks and I was talking sass.

(flashback)

"Luke!! what the FUCK you still didn't do what i said!?"

"I am mom ,I just have on thing left to do!!"

she walks closer to me with the vodka bottle in her hand.

   she punches me in my face,and I land on the ground as she kicks my stomach throwing the bottle at me in the process.

  "YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHITT AND TO THINK I WAS BEING NICE TODAY"

if that's what they call nice then I'm mean.I get the strength and run upstairs as she runs after me.

"YOU FAT ASS OPEN THE DAMN DOOR ,DIE LUKE DIE"I just lie in my bed bleeding and crying my eyes out.

(end of flashback)

   after a while she stops and I hear a door slam...she left.

my phone suddenly vibrates...a text.

FROM: BLUE HAir gal

   hey cutie ,where are you? the party already started

      happy birthday <3

I text back...I promised her...I have to go.

thanks love,and Srry I was busy be there in bit don't have too much fun;)

  in a few seconds she replies saying 'haha okay'

I get up and go to the bathroom to look in the mirror.

   fat.fat.stupid.worthless.

     I'm so lifeless ,I grab my box of blades from the shelf and grab a small but sharp blade.

   

(btw italics in this part is him talking out loud)

 

I slice it across my skin hard making blood stream from my wrist.

happy birthday to me happy birthday to worthless happy birthday to you

one ,two ,three

happy birthday to me. I sing as I finish and cry one last time.

  I needed to feel something,to feel alive

I get up and clean my mess and hide my blades .

I slip on ripped black skinnier and the shirt cal gave me today  ,along with my bracelets.

I decided to put my hair in a quif like how cal is doing it ...I need a change today.

  I finally am happy with my look putting a black beanie on and leaving.

**at the party**

  I arrived at the party ,I snuck out my window and walked still with tear down my face on the way. I managed to man up and stop acting like a little bitch as I walk in

  I hear paramore...so I'm happy.

"lukeeeee!!!" I turn around as I'm being attacked by Stella who hugs me like a koala bear...she's stunning.

she died her hair blue again and is wearing my nirvana shirt and leather shorts....hot as fuck I might say.

"are you okay ? you look like something is wrong?"

         was it that noticeable?

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   hey lovelies ,I'm baaack

    I'm adding a new character...she my bestieee lol

        enjoy double update biatchoas

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