Struggles (L.H)

letting it out.

*back to present day*

   

"hello Luke,it's nice to see you again I see your friends are here" I hate everyone so fucking much.ughhh

    you failed you piece of shit you failed both of us.

ughh why won't he go away?!

"no it's not fucking nice to be here go the fuck away!!"I scream at him I just I want to go ,he was right I'm stupid.

  "now Luke,calm down please let's begin okay?"

"whatever like the fuck if I care."I mumble...today is the first time I have talked since they found me .

   my phone then rings...it's Stella she's facetiming me.

"hold that thought."

  "but we need to star-"

"this is urgent just one fucking moment" he nods as the others are curious of what is going on..I anser the call as I try to straighten up my hair..what?!I'm trying to make an effort.

   "HEYOOO"she looks breathtaking...her hair was still blue but she ...has new piercings..shark bites to be exact.WOW.

   "hey what's up?"

"nothing much wanted to see if I can make you smile ...and to tell you I have new piercings "

  "yeah I can see that babe you look nice."she laughs and gets up.hmmm...where is she goin.

"where are you  taking me ms.Ella?!" everyone is very quiet..good that's how it should be.

  "well...I wanted to show you something I made for you ..I was gonna bring it when I see you but I'm quite busy today at the moment." as she is talking she goes into her room and grabbed a piece of clothing or something?

   "what is it?"

"it's a beanie that I made .. it says penguin on it..I took a knitting class..."she says showing me..she's just AWW.

   "are you smiling Luke?" I didn't even realize it...God this is the first time in months I've smiled...

  "yeah I guess so.. but only for you."

"aww thanks well I got to go Jasmine is here so I hope you get better and keep that smile okay?"

   "okay" she ends the call and I put my phone away but then soon I realised I still had people in here .

   "umm...sorry about that she UH...I uh let's move on."my smile goes away.

  "it's fine and let's start with your diagnosis ect. "

I nod as the boys do the same. he then looks at his clipboard.

"according to what the test and everything has showed you have,severe depression,insomnia,anxiety,eating disorder,and obviously you suffer from suicidal thoughts and actions as well as self harm,and last but not least post traumatic stress disorder."

    "yeah yeah whatever I'm a fuck up."

"not necessarily Luke ,now.. can you tell me why you're so depressed?"everyone is all tense...I can sense it.

   don't tell them Luke don't you fucking DARE .they will tell everyone how pathetic you really are.

   I don't reply to him ...I mean he is right  everyone will look at me with fucking pity and shit.I'm FINE by myself.

   "okay..next question..do you know why you get so nervous all the time?"

   "why don't you shut the hell up I'm not telling you."