Stray Kids Imagines

⇨14:Reincarnated [Hyunjin]

[Mention of drinking and disorder]

Hyunjin POV.

I miss her a lot
But she isn't here with me anymore
I wished I can turned back time
But I know it isn't possible
Everything is too late now

What did she do to me
Why did I hurt her this way
If I didn't hurt her
She would be here with me

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It's been about a year since Y/N is gone. I'm the one who caused her to die and I regret it now. Let me explained to you how it happened.

Me and Y/N have been dating for 5 years before she passed away. She was everything a guy would want from a girl but sadly I didn't cherished her properly. It all started from when I was drunk at my company party, I had gotten so drunk and I had a one night stand with one of my coworker. After that night, I felt very guilty towards Y/N but I didn't tell her as I didn't know how she will react but the worst thing is I gotten interested with my coworker and I had an affair with her.

It was going perfectly but I didn't last long. Y/N found out my affair when she came to visit me during lunch break and she saw me making out with my coworker. She felt very heartbroken and betrayed by me, it tried to explained to her and say sorry but she wouldn't listen to me.

After that, she ran away from my workplace, i followed tightly behind her till i followed her to a rooftop.Y/N went towards the edge of the rooftop and stood on the edge. I tried to get her down from there but she refuses too. Out of a sudden, she jump from the rooftop, I ran to the edge and look down to saw her lifeless body on the ground with a pool of blood surrounding her.

I felt very guilty upon her death but the thing I made me more guilty is that she was 2 and a half month pregnant with my child before death, I knew this when the doctor told me after they did an autopsy on her. Now I loss the two person that is important in my life, Y/N and my unborn child.

Everyday in my life after her death was nothing, I quitted my job at the company to avoid my coworker and the memories that caused her death. I would spend my days drinking all the way but now I became more aggressive day by day till the other Stray kids members had enough of it and brought me to see a psychiatrist. I was diagnosed with psychotic disorder and soon I was being locked up in a mental hospital.

I was locked in a dark room with my hands tied together and I had to see a therapist for my conditions. After being in there for about less than a year, I was released from there, I felt like a normal human being again but I still can't forget what happened as flashback of it keeps replaying in my head.

Walking back home from the hospital was great, breathing in the fresh air in the sky was so relaxing. Suddenly I bump until a lady while walking and fell to the floor. I helped her up and looked at her, I was stunned as her resemble was incredibly similar to Y/N and I knew that a future will happened to be me and her but I promised that I won't repeat the same mistakes again.

~I love you Y/N like the sun and moon~