Make Me Breathe! (Completed)

Chapter 11

Clara's POV

I woke early today and I was arranging my clothes when my phone rang. I picked it and saw the word 'Sarah crazy ' appear on the screen. It was my friend calling ,in fact it has been four days since I lastly saw her. I had saved her 'crazy' because of her crazy behaviours.

"Hello my sweet Lara," she greeted on the other line.

"Morning too my long forgotten friend."

"I'm just here in my house and you can never afford to pay me a visit and see whether I died since Saturday you bitch."

"I know my friend can never die, that a sure thing. How are you doing anyway I miss you ."

"I miss you too and I'm fyn. How about you come and hang with me after classes ."

"That fyn, I will."

"See you then, you know I don't have classes today. I'm in my room throughout the day."

"See you and make some lunch."

She agreed and after exchanging goodbyes she hung up as I went on with my work.

It was on Wednesday and I had only one class at ten which was good for me since I will have much time to prepare myself.
My roommate Maureen had already left for her classes and will not come soon.

My days have been slow and not much eventful. Since Sunday morning I have not met Jack and that was a good thing to me. I didn't want to meet with him anymore , it would be awkward you know.

But to my surprise some silly part of me wanted to meet with him. I don't know why but I assure you it not what you think.

In fact I'm confused by this whole thing of me and him.

I feel guilty because of how rude I have been since he knew me , I have always acted in a 'I hate you much' way. I don't know why I hate him but so far have tried to have a reason for my hatred and the answer is always 'no reason'. But slowly I found him different from the rest of men I know of.

He is tolerating my rude comments and my attitude towards him. It not like I'm considering anything .....I swear I don't even know......it confusing.

Let me be sincere to you guys and this is it. I have been thinking soo much about Jack since Sunday. I have been figuring what exactly he want from me. Like seriously is it friendship ? Of all people friendship with me ?

Tell me because this is getting into my nerves. The whole thing of me thinking about him is really becoming a usual thing and I find myself zoned out oftenly.

To my surprise even my roommate has realized how queit have been since she came back on Monday morning. I don't know what she meant by saying I'm queit. Like doesn't have a deeper meaning ? I'm I quiet anyway?

Yes, I have because most of my time are spent thinking much about my life and how shattered my life is. Just kidding of course I've been thinking about him.

Jack.

Call me a fool. I won't argue I will certainly say 'yes I'm a big fool'.

And all this thing I am changing into has started to bug the shit out of me. Of course I'm thinking too far ahead of my liking and it not healthy.

I swear I was not like this. I've never thought deeply about anybody apart from my parents and my sister. To be honest I'm finding this whole thing awkward and quiet a bother.