It was the destruction of many relationships
Plagued not just me, but others around
I killed a bird with a stone
For I was clayed by young stupidity
And now the guilt is cutting at my throat
You wormed your way through my barrier
Rarely touch, and never destructible
Trail and error took you in
But I was satisfied
You were the only one strong enough to break me
The chains were no longer intact,
The pain was terminated
but the trauma on my heart remained
The best is always saved for last, and you are my last
It was much deeper than you think
But now that you're gone, there will be no more
I didn't expect you to be the spark of a new story
Now that my life support is gone
I was too afraid to open up
and I betrayed your trust
I killed my guardian angel
apologies will forever strangle me from inside
I tried to let you go
but every bit of anger rioted against me
See me as your enemy
For your blood is forever stained on my hands
and now your last words are graved into my head
Words on pages will never fully explain this affliction
Negativity will rain down as long as I'm in this state
A state of unmovable stagnation
Where I constantly ask myself
Why do I run?
My eyelids are too heavy
They can't be closed without living that memory
The only present feeling is emptiness
And I never thought the pain could grow
I'm sorry I didn't know how to read you
The nine-year war must come to an end
I'll change myself for you
and terminate every living demon inside for your light to shine
YOU ARE READING
Cold Nights ||Poems||
PoetrySometimes I just need a way to express how I feel when I can't put it into words, I'm sure we all feel that way whether you're a teen or young adult. Mental health deserves to be heard, you deserve to be heard.
