MY WORST FEARS (Completed)

CHAPTER 2

LAILA'S POV

My heart throbbed so fast and hard under my breasts. The excitement of joining new school and meeting new faces, mixed with the fear of the unknown got hold of me.

I spent countless hours in class back in high school while my fellow girls were out playing or gossiping about the hottest boys in school, I didn't know anything about hot or cold so I remained in class and burried myself with books.

Not that I was a compulsive pedant, It was my secret mechanism to hide from people. I admired my sister. She always made friends. I'd watch girls try to imitate her style. Walk like her, talk like her and so on. She was my inspiration. Her magnetic force drew people close to her.

I didn't know what held me back. I would try, but it only came out so unnatural to me. It felt strained. Like I was created to be a loner and now that I was joining college, I knew I needed to loosen up. I needed a platform to express myself.

I always walked in pretence, faking smiles, lying all the time and not being able to express anything I felt inside. Nothing was real to me. I needed to fix everything and that time as I walked through the pathway to the accounts office, I knew I needed to start all over again. Be myself. Do the things I loved.

One thing I heard about college, is that everyone had freedom of expression. Nobody cared a thing about what you did or what would happen to you. The best place to be myself. To be what I always wanted to be. I couldn't pretend anymore. I wanted to be happy.

And maybe live a little. Maybe.
But how would I do that?
Nothing was so thrilling like joining college. The freedom of students to do what they wanted and the less hours they stayed in class, unlike high school, where you spent the whole day in class, wearing short skirts.
God I hated those skirts.

As I walked through the seething corridors to the accounts office, I realized how I had acquired something I always admired. I just couldn't place my fingers on it.
The school was much bigger with buildings scattered around the school compound, which I assumed were classes for different courses. The view of the green grass and different coloured edging plants along the pathway made the school more captivating.

I entered in the accounts office where almost every door was closed. There were two doors on the left. One of the door on the far side was enclosed written 'the chief accountant' clearly stating keep off serious business only.
The other door was open, I decided to walk in and see about my business.
There was only one person in the cubicle office. The other three tables were empty with neatly arranged files on the desks. The exact kind of life I wanted after school. Working in an office, only that I only wanted my own office where I wouldn't have to share with anyone. Someone pulled me from my thoughts and I turned to the lady greeting me.

"Good morning. Oh I'm sorry I...how are you? Ummh! ", I greeted the lady behind the desk at the reception. She had beautifully held her hair in a bun and when she smiled at me, my heart glowed with happiness amazed at how friendly people were.
She must have really worked hard in school to get a great job like this. It's literally the kind of job you can't get hold of if you don't have either good connections or good grades oh and beauty but by the look of how she carried herself, she was an intelligent one. Obviously her wits got her the position. And she definitely was beautiful.

"Hello, you must be one of the new students reporting today, congratulations you're the first to arrive ", thanks to my strict mum for chasing me out of the house so early in the morning.

"I came to drop my receipt before heading to my first class, but I really don't know my way around the school. If you could help, maybe with a map...", I said hoping I wouldn't have to walk in circles around school looking for my class the whole day.
"Which course are you talking?", she asked and I was happy to respond.
"Bachelor of commerce ", it wasn't the my first option course that I'd have chosen but since I hadn't attained the cut-points to do medicine, I decided to stick with maths.