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I literally have nothing left to protect, to love, to embrace and to care about.

They all had disappeared in just a snap of a finger. What was worse, I felt that I had been stripped off my normality a teenager usually had, and my mind wasn't anything but merely shreds.

My family and friends were no longer around, nor did they consider me as a part of them anymore. It was me and just me only, completely stranded and forced to wander through the roads, facing every daily problems alone. In the middle of every mindless walking I did, something crossed my mind. I actually begged for this to happen, so I should have seen this coming, but... I didn't expect it to go this worse, so this was what I got.

Why should I care, anyway...? When I cared, I ended up suffering and thrown into continuous amount of pain. When I cared, someone ended up getting heartbroken like Rena, or even killed like Lynn. When I cared, everyone would get into some pointless drama that shouldn't happen. I make mistakes after mistakes... and end up being a mistake myself.

I had no more sanity left, but I still got a few time left before I rot away into the darkness. Everyone would forget about me and the fact that I had existed among them. They would pretend to be busy while I slowly perish, and thought nothing of it. This was all just perfect, and it was all going according to my plan, even when I failed to drive Raphael... into killing and using me.

Wandering for the rest of the day made me feel my legs weren't there anymore. The skies had lost its cerulean color and slowly faded to black, birds had gone back to their respective homes. The sun had gone back to sleep, so the lights inside every buildings and streetlights had been switched on to illuminate the town.

So... hungry...

My stomach had been growling loudly, like that of a wild dog. I could feel the acid that it produced starting to consume its walls, and thus, the pain became sharp and acute. I doubled over, but I tried not to make it so obvious. Lots of people had passed by me with food on their hands, and I intensely stared at them like a predator. I wanted to snatch it and shove it into my salivating mouth, but I held the urge back. Besides, I brought no money, nor did I bring my wallet with me. I had left everything but my phone at the house where I used to live.

Speaking of my phone, I had been bombarded with calls and texts from Lu, Mother, and some even came from Father himself. Obviously, I left all of them unread and unanswered, but after some time, they annoyed me. I decided it to turn it off. Why should they care? Why the fuck would Father call me if he's the one threatening me to throw me out of the house...?

I found myself breathing so heavily, stopping in the middle of the path. I can't go on anymore... I just can't...

Before I knew it, my rubber knees abruptly dropped to the ground while my body fell to the side and hit against the wall. There should have been a great affliction upon the collision, but I couldn't feel anything at all, as though the receptors that should have given me pain were not working. I tried to stand back on my feet, but I couldn't move my legs freely anymore.

Please... just a little bit more... I promise I will find a better shelter than here... Please... I begged desperately, but they refused to listen. I didn't know where I was right now, and despite the lights, everything was still too dark to see. I tried to look around, trying to find out whether it was a known district. There were no buildings I was familiar with, all of them seemed foreign to me. I must have wandered too senselessly, far from what I knew.

I have to move on, but I couldn't. There were no shelters in here, just buildings, and I collapsed next to one with red bricks. The street itself was sparse of cars and people, so it was almost silent, but I could still hear some distant noises. I decided to give up on going further, and slowly lie on the cold ground, with my legs folded. Now, I'm on my own, and no one won't annoy the shit out of me... I should be grateful, but...