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"What the hell are you thinking?!"

The voice of my sister pierced through my sudden blankness, bringing me back to the world. My heart accelerated at an alarming rate, probably on the verge of exceeding its limit. It forcefully thumped against my chest, colliding against my throbbing ribs. It could even soar out of my body if not for them and my skin. I could hear its thunderous beats piercing my eardrums, and I could feel it battering against my ribs. For some reason, my heavy breathings came out as a smoke while it escaped my lips.

As my vision slowly restored, I noticed Lu holding me down. I couldn't read her expression, but clearly she had somewhat... glassy eyes, her lips were trembling, and so did her entire body. She had her teeth shown, and it seemed that they were chattering. Even if she tried restraining both of my arms, I still couldn't move a thing, as if all my nerves controlling my muscles had been abruptly cut off.

"Are you crazy?!" She suddenly yelled, spitting traight at my stoned face. However, that was when reality slowly seeped back upon me, hitting me like a swinging hammer.

I should have died earlier...

I should not exist anymore, and I should have been somewhere else right now...

I should have successfully strangled myself to death, but it didn't let me. I survived the whole ordeal, because she... my sister... unexpectedly stepped into the scene and stopped me from... gaining freedom.

Fate was surely playing on me... It wanted to get rid of me, but at the same time, it wanted to torture and daunt me badly. It was seriously fucking with my head that I was literally abandoned with nothing but... tons of questions and disarrayed thoughts.

Why...?

Why did something want to keep me alive...?

Why does it not want me to be happy...?

Do I really have to suffer much longer...?

Well, in that case... I shouldn't be holding back anymore. I couldn't fail again, I have been waiting for the perfect time for days... and this chance was where I almost granted my wish.

I have enough of this... I couldn't just stand here and be in more excruciating pain...

I should stand up for myself...

"NO!!!" I found myself screaming and simultaneously, my voice cracked. "STAY AWAY!!! DON'T TOUCH ME!!!"

In a blink of an eye, there was a surge of emotions filling through me. Because of such energy, I was able to regain control of my body. I immediately used all of the remaining strength I have in an attempt to shove her away. However... the power was too feeble, that I didn't even budge her at all.

"You're not going anywhere, Ed!" She raised her tone back. "I won't let you do that, ever!"

"NO, DON'T STOP ME!!! JUST LET ME DO WHAT I WANT!!! SO LET ME GO!!! STOP FUCKING AROUND WITH ME!!!" I just... lost all of my cool. Who won't... when they had been stopped from doing what they desired too many times...?

"No, I won't!" She denied.

I tried squirming and wriggling myself away from Lu, but then... everything just weakened... like I have gradually ran out of energy. I couldn't scream at her anymore... and it barely came out as a quivering whisper.

"P-Please just l-let me die..." I implored, as my I choked on my own unstable breaths. "Please..."

"Edward..." She called out my name, but I ignored her and continued with my ramblings.