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s i x t y - s e c o n d ♂️

A/N: This chapter contains SERIOUS triggering scenes. Read at your own risk.

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It sure took me a lot of time to realize that I wasn't worth living in this world.

My entire life was a joke, and my purpose of being born was to fill up space. On that day of the accident, I was supposed to die out of blood loss, but for no reason, I narrowly escaped death. I had cheated on fate, and so it decided to continuously torment me and give me pain, gradually tearing me apart pieces by pieces. It did its job successfully, and now, I was an empty shell which will soon rot away.

I struggled with myself as I went up the stairs, clutching both the rope and the knife tightly on each of my hands. My breaths had gotten somewhat heavier by each second, and if there were people around, they most likely will hear it. My body couldn't even take in oxygen properly, but that made it easier for me to carry out my plans. The weaker I got, the better.

Due to countless of hallucinations I had seen, I was severely paranoid of everything, which explained why I felt like my actions were being watched. The skin on the back of my neck tingled, as an alleged pair of eyes bored through me, but in reality, there was no one around. It couldn't be Mother, because she was out for the day and Lu... well I didn't sense her presence downstairs, so I assumed she was on her room.

It was probably me imagining that same kid from yesterday to be watching me. He was probably satisfied and thankful that I was able to build some courage to do what he said, so he shouldn't be of an obstacle to my goal. Ugh... I shouldn't let my stupid paranoia get the best of me... or else... it would fail again.

Once I stopped in front of my room, I stopped for a moment. Before going in, I took my time to scan around the area, making sure there was actually no witnesses. It was completely silent, only there were background noises from the outside world, so it was safe to proceed. In fact, this will be my last time standing in here, so I should take this chance to bid farewell mentally. However, I should do this fast, otherwise, second thoughts will end up stuffing my head.

After I was done, I slipped inside, and gently closed the door behind me with a satisfying click. There, I tossed the rope and the knife onto the floor, and the latter landed with a loud, clanging noise. I recoiled at the sound, as I thought it was loud enough to be heard from the other room... but obviously... there was nothing to be worried of. Lu wouldn't really pay attention to those kind of things, after all.

I was about to make use of these objects, when an idea flashed inside my head. At a glance, it seemed like it would take an excessive amount time and effort, but after contemplating deeper, it sounded like an excellent idea. Half of my mind disagreed and demanded me to go straight for the plan, but I ignored their complains and shut them off.

Well, it was to write my last words and apologies for those people involved in all my shit... then left it on the table so they could read it and rejoice.

There... I thought of my parents and how disappointed they were in having me around. They hid their true feelings, and acted like they cared about me.

My siblings... well, especially Lu... they were probably annoyed at why they had such an unusual brother. Lu... she probably haven't forgive me when I shouted at her, and saying sorry... was the best thing I could do.

My friends... well... I had severely hurt them. I destroyed most of their relationships with each other, and with me as well. They had known that whenever they cared about me, they will be harmed no matter what. I was the cause of every horrible situations they confronted... especially Rena.