Friend Zoned || Shyland Fanfiction 《✔》

chapter twenty-six

{ i was suppose to post this on wednesday, but fuck it. also, this chapter...well go ahead and read it to find out :) }

Ryland's POV

*One Month Later*

It took a while to think of something to do. Should I continue to try and get Shane to remember what we had, or is that just a waste of time? Should I just let him go, and let him be happy with another man? Both that had horrible disadvantages, and I didn't know whether which one was right for my situation.

I gave myself a time limit. 

Only one month to get Shane to remember.

It's now been past that. 

Shane listened to me throughout the sessions where I would try and get him to remember, but nothing would spark his brain to the memory. He always told me "sorry", and I didn't want him to apologize. It wasn't his fault that a drunk driver was on the road, it wasn't his fault he needed to go into work early, it wasn't his fault that he was waiting for a response back from me.

After our sessions, Shane wouldn't know what to do so he always just left to Blake's house. He didn't know any better, I mean, that's his boyfriend. I hated the fact that Blake is Shane's boyfriend, because well, I was his fiance that he had previously dated for three years and he was then suddenly taken away from me. Though, I couldn't just keep trying to chase someone that was unobtainable at this point. 

It's not like I wanted to give up on Shane, because I was willing to fight for him for the rest of my days if meant he'd remember. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way. See the more I had stuffed into Shane's head about us, the more I confused him and there was no one he could run to except Blake. I let my mind drift a bit at times, and finally told myself maybe it was time to just...

Let go.

I could already here my heart screaming for me not too, I heard it pleading me to just wait a little while longer. That maybe, Shane could remember it would just go right back to where it left off. Though, my mind had other plans. It wasn't likely for Shane to remember, I had even talked to his doctors and there was nothing that I could do at this point. 

I was angry. Angry at the world, because it had taken the best thing that had ever happen to me away. Not physically, but mentally and emotionally. My mind kept telling me to just move on, and let Shane carry on with Blake and to just be there to support him. Yes, I knew letting go of him was going to be a bitch, but I couldn't stand it anymore. 

I couldn't stand watching Shane just leave to Blake's house. I couldn't stand to have my heart in such pain all the time. I couldn't stand the fact that Shane was never going to remember anything. I couldn't stand to just see all the love marks that Shane had sometimes when he would come home. I couldn't stand to realize that...

Shane wasn't mine anymore. 

I planned for weeks. I planned to get a new house, and I had recently gotten new furniture to go with it. I had gotten one of my friends who had furnished houses for a living, and she ended just giving me everything for half off.  I was going to leave Shane with the apartment until him and Blake decide to grow their relationship even more.  Besides, Shane was starting to get back to the roots of his work so he could be able to pay off the apartment alone. 

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I packed my belongings into small boxes that I would just put into my car. All I had to do now was to wait for Shane to come home from work and just tell him the news. I knew this was the right thing to do, sure it was cliche, but it was right. I sat on the couch and waited for a couple hours until I heard the apartment door open and close. 

"Ugh, how did I do this before? Writing all day is so tiring at times, especially when you have no ideas whatsoever." Shane complained, as he plopped himself onto the couch next to me.

"Shane, I need to talk to you." I said, turning the TV down just a bit so that my voice was clear to him. "It's kind of important."

"Uh,well okay." He said, a bit unsure of everything but he turned his full attention to me. "So, what do you need to tell me?"

"I-I'm moving out, tonight." 

I didn't want to look up but I did. His eyes were dull and sad, and filled with confusion. I couldn't understand why he was upset. He was now able to have Blake around here and it not be so awkward that I would be around. I forced myself to look back down, not wanting to see his expressions as it would probably make me rethink everything. 

"W-Why? Did I do something wrong?" He asked, a bit of worry in his voice and a tint of hurt. 

"It's nothing you did, I just- I need to move on..." I sighed, as Shane just tilted his head. "From you, I need to move on from you. You're with Blake, and this whole thing with you trying to remember us isn't working."

"We can keep trying! Ryland, I'm just starting to f-"

"Shane, you can be happy with Blake and I can mov-"

His soft hand then grabbed the sides of my face quickly, and placed his lips onto mine. I quickly melted into the kiss, grabbing his hips and pulling him a bit closer to me. Our lips were molding together, moving perfectly with one another. We needed to breathe, and we slowly pulled away from each other but our eyes stayed locked. 

"Ry, I'm just starting to fall in love with you." He whispered, his eyes were glowing and his face was rosy. "I broke up with Blake weeks ago."

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haha, three packets of homework that i haven't touched...
but nope i'm writing this.