Loving a 'G'

CHAPTER 29: Courage and Denials

CHAPTER 29: Courage and Denials

PATRICE'S POV

October 31. Thursday. 1 AM.

Thanks to the taxi, I got home. Everyone is already asleep. I slowly made my way upstairs to my room. I still cannot believe what just happened... I cannot believe what Faye just told me. Really? Tyrone? A gigolo? You gotta be kidding me!

So when I made it to my room, I immediately opened my laptop and went to Google. I typed 'Gigolo'. Of course I have to make sure that the gigolo that Faye is accusing Tyrone of being is the same with the definition of this word to me.

There are a lot of results showed so I opened them. I swear to god, my heart was racing in disgust and I was teary-eyed while reading every definitions that the web has given me. 

Gigolo

1. A male prostitute equivalent to a high-class call girl; gigolos service wealthy women. Gigolos sometimes receive gifts in lieu of payment for services, for example a Rolex or a Mercedes.

2. A man who has a continuing sexual relationship with and receives financial support from a woman.

3. A man living off the earnings or gifts of a woman, esp. a younger man supported by an older woman in return for his sexual attentions and companionship.

My heart thudded so fast and I feel like throwing my laptop outside the window. I know what a gigolo is.... and Faye just told me that my boyfriend is one. I sighed deeply. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!! What am I supposed to do with this?!!

Hindi ko na talaga alam ang magiging reaksyon ko. Naguguluhan ako, naiinis ako sa sarili ko, naiinis ako kay Tyrone! Naiinis ako sa nangyayari!! So ganito na lang 'toh? Isang araw malalaman ko na lang na yung lalaking mahal na mahal ko, isang gigolo. That he's some sort of a male prostitute? Binabayaran lang ng kung sinu-sinong mayayamang babae? Dammit!

Tumunog ulit yung phone ko. I'm sure si Tyrone na naman ang natawag. Kanina pa sya natawag sa akin at kanina ko pa rin dinededma ang mga tawag niya. I grabbed my phone and turned it off. I never imagined this day would come that I can really ignore Tyrone's calls. 

It's because I'm scared. I'm scared kung anong pwede kong masabi sa kanya. I'm scared na baka bigla na lang mawala yung Tyrone na minahal ko at mapalitan ito ng bago niyang katauhan na nalaman ko. Sa puso't isip ko, si Tyrone ay si Tyrone. Sya yung lalaking misteryoso, malahim, moody pero mahal ko... Hindi sya isang bayarang lalaki. I don't want to think of him that way... I don't want to feel disgusted by him...

But what choice do I have? Masyado akong nabibigla sa mga nangyayari! I don't know what to think! Kayo nga, sabihan kayo na ang boyfriend niyo ay isang gigolo? Ghad! I'm not buying any of this! Tyrone is being paid money and luxury in exchange of sexual favors? COME ON, STOP PLAYING SHITS ON ME...

Because it hurts like hell...

I already cleaned up myself and ready to go to bed pero hindi ko pa rin maialis sa isip ko ang lahat. Talaga lang ha? Si Tyrone? Nakakatawa. Grabe... pero natigilan ako. But what if it's really true? I'm in denial but... if I think of it... it's possible.