Loving a 'G'

CHAPTER 36: Serendipity

CHAPTER 36: Serendipity

November 17. Sunday. 6:30 PM

TYRONE'S POV

This is the last hospital around this area and will also be the fourth hospital that I'm going to visit. I've been killing myself for the last three hours, trying to numb my body and freeze my brain so I cannot think of anything else. I cannot let myself wander to the news about Patrice dying. I just can't. So I ran and ran like a fool with no direction.

I actually want to escape. Escape all of this. I was scared that Patrice really left me and I will have to live the rest of my life regretting my mistakes and for not being able to talk to her and win her again. I was so stupid. But then in those dreadful hours, I managed to think of some ways I can kill myself. If Patrice really die on me, then I will not hesitate to follow her. I am fearless without her.

The most promising idea of suicide that I have is to get run over by a bus. I'm pretty sure my body will be crashed but at least I will be sure dead. I am planning to execute my suicide plan just few kilometers away from the bus stop where I exactly  met Patrice...

"Miss! Please check! Patrice Ramirez? May naka-admit ba dito?" I asked hastily the nurse in the front desk the question that I already asked for over a few times already by now. I was hoping she will say 'No Patient' just like what other nurses from the previous hospitals answered to me.

"Yes, I think so we have that patient. Go to that hallway and ask a nurse, she will point you to the room." she answered. She didn't bother to look for the patient in their computer because people are crowding. It's a busy rush hour for them.

At kahit medyo hinihingal- hingal pa ako, nagmadali akong pumunta sa may hallway na tinuro nung babae. I need to run. I should keep running. Though I'm not exactly sure why I am running... Am I running to Patrice? Or am I running to escape the reality that she is dead...?

"Miss....." I stopped her on her tracks. "Patrice Ramirez. Where is she?" I'm running out of oxygen in my lungs and the nurse just looked at me. "Please. Patrice.... Ramirez... She's admitted here. Where....??" I asked in between my breaths.

"4th room on the left wing. Kapag nakarinig ka ng room na may nag-iiyakan, yun na yun. Sige, kailangan ko ng tawagin si doc." sabi nung nurse na napagtanungan ko at mabilis ring umalis. 

Room na nag-iiyakan? Shit. Don't tell me... Shit. It cannot be true!

When I turned, rinig na rinig ko ang malakas na iyakan kahit may ilang kwarto pa ang distansya ko. I closed my eyes and clenched my fist. Every step I am running feels heavier now. God. I am getting closer to the 4th room and I can already hear the loud crying. It must be Charisse and Aira...

Damn it. It's true, then? How can that be fcking true?! How did it fcking happen?!

Patrice... My sweet, innocent Patrice.... really passed away?

Wait for me Patrice... I will see you soon. Only a couple of steps and I will be there.