Don't get too close

Broken

-Natasha's pov-

I open my eyes unwillingly.I feel a strong pair of arms wrapped around me.

What?

I look to my right and see Justin with his arms around me.

I sigh in relief.

"Nat?"he mumbles.

"Hmm?"

"Good morning."He mumbles.

"Morning."I sigh.

"Can we go back to sleep."he mumbles into my shoulder.

I roll my eyes,"you can."

"Can't you stay with me?"

"No."

"Why do you hate me?"

"I don't."I argue.

"Yes you do."he frowns.

"No I don't."

"Then why won't you cuddle with me?"

"BECAUSE I DONT WANT TO,OK??YOU ARENT MY FUCKING BOYFRIEND!"I yell.

He opens his eyes wide,"huh?"

"Never mind."I mumble before storming out and slamming the door behind me.

Who does he think he is? 'Cuddle me' um no.

Is he pretending to be there for me just so he can get close to me?ugh.

"Hey hunny what's wrong."

I almost forgot about mom.

"Why are you still here?"I turn towards her as she leans against the door frame of the guest bedroom.

"Because..."

"I don't like you,mom.In fact I hate you,so can you just leave? You and me,we are never going to be good,ok?"I spat.

I heard the door open to my room,probably Justin,but I ignore it.

"Don't speaks to me like that."She barks.

"Fuck you."I say through gritted teeth.

Suddenly I felt a sharp pain to my cheek,causing me to stumble backwards.I yelp in pain as the bruise on my cheek starts to throb,was that my mom?

"Woah woah woah."Justin walks over to us.

Before he gets close,I stand up and lunge at my mom but a pair of hands pulls me back right before I can get to her.

"What did I ever do to you?"she whispers.

"WHAT DID YOU EVER DO TO ME?!"I scream,"YOU FUCKING LEFT ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST!!YOU TURNED TO ALCOHOL INSTEAD OF CARING FOR ME.WHEN I WAS FOURTEEN FUCKING YEARS OLD I WAS FORCED TO WORK SO I COULD PAY RENT AND FOOD AND I HAD TO LOOK AFTER YOU!"tears were furiously running down my face now,Nicole and Frank were standing there shocked,Ryan holding me back with Justin,"DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD THAT WAS?!"

"Natasha calm down"Ryan says.

I get out of their grip and turn towards him,"I WILL NOT CALM DOWN RYAN!IVE GOT TOO MUCH SHIT GOING ON AND I CANT DEAL WITH IT!"I scream,"I can't deal with it.."I whisper before running into my room,sobbing.

I slam the door shut and lock it.

I can't do this anymore.

I can't live like this anymore.

I just..I can't.

I'm in so much pain I just need to let it out..

But how?