Love me forever and always

Funeral

~Hunters POV~

We finished our camping trip and went home. Randy's funeral is tomorrow. I don't understand why the word fun is in funeral because there is nothing fun about them. I feel so sorry for my girl about her dad. My dads decided to stay longer with Rachel since we have the twins. They are staying for another 2 months where ever they took her. I picked up maryann and carried her inside. I've been carrying her a lot because after she heard about her dad she feels sick a lot and can barely walk. I feel so sorry for my baby. I laid her down on the couch. She was shaking like crazy. She wasn't cold I think she was having a panic attack. I know how to deal with these. I sat there and talked to her until she card down. I covered her with a blanket and turned the tv on. I went out side and got out the sleeping kids with the help of Katie. We talked about Maryann for a little bit and took them in. We put them in their beds and I went back to Maryann. She was in our room getting dressed. I picked out a shirt for her and she put it on. I held on to her so she wouldn't fall. The viewing is tonight. Katie is staying with the kids but we are bringing Joseph. I helped maryann to the bathroom and stood her in front of the sink. I brushed her hair and pinned it up really pretty for her. I put a little makeup on her and she turned around and held on to me. I put her on the bed and sat beside her. I rubbed her stomach and she started to cry.

M: I can't believe this is really happening

H: I know baby I know

M: I wish I could of had more time with him. He's been in service since I was 10

H: I know baby. This will be hard for you but I'll hear for you and always will be.

She rolled over and faced me. Thank you is all she said and she snuggled into me. I love you. I checked my watch after a while. It's almost time to go baby. I got up and helped her. I led her downstairs and Katie brought me Joseph and some clothes.

K: I can't decide what button up shirt goes better with his kaki shorts. I put a blue striped on him and some sandals. I put him in his car seat and Katie brought me his bag. I put everything in the car and Katie helped Maryann to the car. I got Joseph in a picked maryann up bridal style and put her in the truck. She wants to take her dads truck which I understand completely. He dad wanted her to have it when she started driving. We got to the funeral home and I got the baby out. I helped maryann down out of the truck and picked up the car seat. I helped her in and we walked into the room. It was us, her mom, some cousins, aunts, and uncles. We walked over to the couch where her mom was.

M: mom this is my husband hunter and our son Joseph.

M: hi baby. Hi........

H: hunter

M:hunter nice to meet you

I shook her hand. I got Joseph out and handed him to Maura. She looked at him and said he looks just like me. She handed him to me and we walked over to the casket. Maryann started to cry. I put my arm around her and looked at Joseph. He dad was shot. It's covered by his tux so you can't see it. Maryann took Joseph and put him in the casket. This is your papa Joseph. He is talking a little. He looked down at who he was sitting on. Papa?? yes that's papa baby. I kissed Maryann's head and squeezed her. I picked up Joseph and he kissed his papa. Maryann leaned over and kissed her dad. She held his hand and cried. Joseph started to whine. He needed a clean diaper. I told maryann I would be right back and her mom went over to her. I took Joseph to the bathroom and changed him. I was getting his other diaper when he said peepee. I asked him peepee? he said it again. I picked him up and held him over the toilet. He looked down and said pee-pee? I told him him he could and he did. I wonder if he's ready to be potty trained even though he's only 8 months. I put his diaper on his and carried him back out. I went over to maryann and wrapped my arm around her. She looked up and smiled at me and Joseph. He reached for her and she took him. She sat him with his papa and took a picture. She picked him up and looked at me.

M: (whispering) I can't do this

H: are you ready to leave?.

M: yes but I want to go to the funeral.

H: we will I promise.

She went and told her mom we had to go because Joseph was getting cranky and katie was at the house with 3 kids. We left and when we got he I put Joseph to bed. Me and maryann took a shower and when we got out we got dressed and I sat her on my lap in the bathroom. I brushed her hair and talked to her. We talked about things she did and liked to do with her dad. She has been keeping it bottled up and wont talk but I'm the only one that can get her to talk. I carried her to the bed a laid her down. I was still leaning over her and she still had her legs wrapped around my back. She put her hand on my neck and pulled me closer. She squeezed my neck and I kissed her. We got into bed and woke up at 8 the next morning. The funeral is at 10. We got up and I got Maryann's clothes out and helped her get dressed. I asked her if she was hungry and she said no she just felt weak. I carried her to the bathroom and did her hair and makeup. I got her downstairs and gave Joseph breakfast and a bath. I got him dressed and he played in his bouncy chair until 9:30. I made maryann eat peanut butter crackers and then we left. I helped her Inside the funeral he and we sat in the front row. Joseph was asleep so maybe he would sleep the whole service. I put my arm around maryann. The preacher gave maryann a bouquet of her and her dads favorite flowers with an angel in the middle. I kissed her cheek and they started preaching. They played her dads favorite songs and she started to cry. I wiped her face and she looked at me. After the service we where the last people out. She stood by her dads casket and the paul bears carried it out.

We where the first car in the line to follow her dad in the transport car. When we got to the cemetery we sat in the green chairs. He was being buried beside his dad and mom. After a little bit they lowered the casket. We left and went home. I rubbed Maryann's back when we got home and she was throwing up. She is so overwhelmed she is making herself sick. I sat and rubbed her back. When she finished she crawled into my lap. I carried her to our bed and laid her down. I sang to her until she fell asleep and Katie came and laid with her. I went down and took care of the kids. Joseph is asleep, Phoenix is at a friends, and the twins are playing with blocks. I took Ryder's underwear off and put the potty in the living room.