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can't live without you (two) - taehyung

(a/n: going to be another long one:))

The boys were winning an award tonight but you couldn't be there. You couldn't face seeing Taehyung.

It's been weeks. You haven't been getting enough sleep. Your eyes were always red and puffy in the morning. You weren't you anymore. Without Taehyung, you were nothing.

Taehyung seems to be doing okay. He's been busy with his hectic schedule.

While the boys accepted their award on stage, Taehyung couldn't help but look forward to seeing you. Lately, the boys have made him realize little by little that he was at fault. He wanted to talk to you again. See you again. He just wanted to hear your voice.

After they accepted their award, Taehyung followed the boys backstage and searched for you everywhere. He was disappointed you were nowhere in sight.

"Taehyung," Taehyung felt a hand on his shoulder. It was Namjoon. "(y/n) isn't here tonight."

It was strange for the boys to be receiving an award without you. It was even stranger for Taehyung because you would always be backstage, congratulating them afterwards. Then you'd go on a meal with Taehyung and spend the night in his room.

But you were at home. Doing your own thing. Not with Taehyung.

You have came to your senses and have realized Taehyung isn't going to explain himself. Sometimes you questioned your relationship and thought about leaving him. It was too much pain.

Tonight was the night Taehyung broke down and cried the most. The boys kept asking him what was wrong and he finally admit he was at fault. He knew he was nothing without you. He missed you so much. He wanted to have you in his arms again. He began to slowly regret his wrongs.

That night when the boys returned to their dorm, you were ready to be done with this relationship. You knew getting over Taehyung would be absolutely hard and heartbreaking but you just couldn't take it anymore.

Taehyung was still crying. Jungkook and Jimin tried to comfort him but he couldn't stop crying. He felt so guilty. He called you many times that night.

One,

Two,

Three,

Four,

Five,

Six,

Seven,

Eight,

Nine,

Ten,

Eleven times. Then he grabbed his phone and called you again. Twelve times. You never answered to one. Then he stopped ringing your phone altogether.

Finally, you texted him. He was so happy.

To: Taehyung

How was tonight?

From: user

To: user

You didn't show. I wanted to see you. Please answer my call.

From: Taehyung

He rang your phone again. This time, you picked up.

"(y/n)."

"What?"

"It's really you."

"and you're really you, too." you replied, mimicking his statement.

"I miss you so much. I am so sorry. All of this is my fault."

"I know."

You couldn't understand why you were being so cold to him all of a sudden.

"Taehyung,"

"Huh?"

"I don't think we could do this anymore."

"What are you talking about, (y/n)?"

"I mean us." You both start to tear up. "This is always happening. I would see an article, you would get mad because you don't think I trust you, and then you'd hang up."

"I know, but I'm apologizing."

"Still. We hurt each other too much."

"(y/n), don't do this to me." You could hear him breaking down on the other side of the phone.

"I'm sorry, Taehyung. Take care of yourself."

And just like that, you hung up.

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The next day, Taehyung never left his room. Except for practice or meetings. He hid his sadness behind his bedroom walls. He cried silent tear in front of his friends but loud and meaningful tears behind closed doors.

Days turned into weeks. Weeks turned into months.

Taehyung knew he fucked up. Now, he wasn't sure how he was going to get you back.

Jungkook has noticed his hyung's sadness and decided to fix the problem on his own. He called you.

"(y/n)."

"Jungkook." you greeted, "what d--"

"Take him back." You were surprised by how blunt he was.

"How is he doing?"

"He's a mess." Jungkook began to explain. "He won't eat. He won't sleep. He hides his sadness in front of everyone. He won't talk to anyone. He just keeps waiting for your call or texts. That is how much he loves you. Take him back, (y/n)."

"I can't."

"What do you mean?"

"It's not that I don't want to." You tried to find the correct words. "Want and need are two different things."

"Take h--"

You hung up on Jungkook. Then you received a call from Namjoon.

"What, Namjoon?"

"I'm so fucking worried."

"About what?"

"About Taehyung." He goes on. "He's not even human anymore. All he does is cry over you. He feels so bad. I'm so worried I can't sleep at night. I need him to be okay again. So, please, take him back. Love him again. Make him Taehyung again because the zombie living with us is scaring us to death."

"I'll think about it."

You start to wonder how Taehyung really is. Guilt runs through your bones. You knew you wanted him back but was scared of the future.

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The next day after your conversation with Jungkook and Namjoon, Taehyung showed up at your place. The boys were right.

He was an absolute mess. Taehyung had puffy eyes and deep and dark circles under his eyes. He looked thinner than before. Then you noticed something you had never noticed before. Taehyung looked weak. You have never seen Taehyung weak for he was one of the strongest people you know.

You stood only a few feet in front of him. Tears already rolling down your cheeks.

"(y/n)." He ran up to you and pulled you into a warm embrace. "please take me back."

You stared at him and wrapped your arms around his waist.

"I can't live without you." was all you heard before he collapses.