IMAGINE THIS | bts ✓

shameless - jin

might be too steamy for some of you, i'll rate this 18+...

It wasn't supposed to last this long.

The contract between me and Jin was adjusted so the short term event would be destroyed within a few months. But after many cases and Jin's worries, the fun and games continued a little longer than we both had expected.

What we thought would only begin as fun had eventually reversed back to hurt us both.

Let me rephrase that, our friends-with-benefits contract had Jin hurting more and more each time. It had me going to bed every night shameless, but guilty.

And yet, here Jin was, outside my front door, knocking to gain my attention once again. I heaved a sigh and walked to the door, unlocking it easily, not a single negative thought on my mind because he always did this.

Jin always had stuff that he needed to disappear from his mind, so he came to me at nights when I am mostly free.

His hair was dissheveled, like he had been running his hands through them due to stress. The dark eyes on his beautiful face drew my attention, they were filled with a void that had me ready to drop my panties then and there.

"Y/N..." He mumbled under his breath, almost too quiet to hear.

Jin's attitude and the way he spoke to me had completely alternated ever since we've started this relationship. He was a lot rougher, his voice deep, dark, and seductive.

I could tell what he craved in this exact moment, and what he wanted desperately in this world was me.

Before I knew it, rough hands met my chest and I was forced onto the couch, my back hitting the cushions as Jin leaned towards my face, ghosting his lips over mine.

This. This was what he did to set me into the mood, and I was shameless.

It was a mere moment before his lips captured mine, moving against them coarsely, his shirt coming off within a split-second, his fingers already tugging at the hem of my loose tee. I was aware the only thing I had on was the shirt and panties, and the thought of that had him growling in the midst of our session.

At first, it didn't occur to me, but I knew I had an affect on him. I could ask for anything and he'd do it then and there. He was under my spell and it had him agonized, but I did nothing about it.

"What was it again?" I asked casually through the makeout, his hands finally pulling down my panties. He snarled and continued roughly, removing his boxers.

"Don't say anything else, I just want to hear you moan for me." Jin ordered harshly, his fingers working against my core, gathering up the juices that had leaked before he pushed them in.

I had no choice but ease into the pleasure taking over me.

"You know, this has to stop soon." I breathed out between moans as the pit in my stomach grew larger and larger.

"Why do you want this to end so bad?" He replied, his lips nibbling and sucking against my smooth skin, the overwhelming pleasure of it causing a moan to emit from my lips.

"I'm hurting you. You want more out of this relationship, but I can never give you what you desire besides my body." Jin removed his fingers out of frustration and lined himself up at my entrance, not missing a beat before he slammed into me.

"I know you can't." Jin growled out, his hands gripping tightly around my hips, helping himself reach his climax more and more each time.

"But I keep coming back for one reason and you know it."

The reason Jin kept coming back for more was you. He knew if this continued long enough, you would eventually start to grow feelings the way he has, but you couldn't, and you knew it.

Jin kissed my lips again and I managed to kiss back sloppily as I attempt to catch my breath. His dick twitched as I clenched my walls around him, signalling we both were too close. A bright flash of white light came over me as I tremble in his arms.

"Y/N..." Jin muttered, his thrusts sloppy and uncoordinated.

"I'm sorry." I let out before I finally released myself, the feeling too much for Jin to handle.

"I love you." He confessed as he let his seeds fill me up, but I knew too well.

"I'll always be there."

We laid on the couch, catching our breaths as he kissed me sloppily and pulled me closer, taking in my warmth.

I couldn't do much but let him do this.

Jin thought we had a bond through this loveless relationship, but it was just a delusion. I can tell he wants to move on, but keeps coming back to fill the void, which is making up for his one-sided love towards me.

I don't want to hurt him, yet I will for this, whatever for him if he keeps returning. I'll always be there for him, but my shameless self gets the best of me.

Jin does not let anyone into his heart besides me, but I didn't intend to. He's scared to be loved.

"I'd rather get hurt than open myself to being loved by anyone else." The words from Jin's lips made so much sense, yet I didn't understand them.

I know that I'm the bad guy, but at the same time—

it's not my fault.