Why we broke up [Editing]

What is love?

What is love if you're not here with me?
What is love if it's not guaranteed?
What is love if it just ups and leaves?

What is love?
What is love if you're not really sure?
What is love if it just ups and goes?

We were supposed to be an empire

When we say "love is blind" we are not referring to how we were blind about the other one's appearance. Because that would actually be mean, if less not true.

The concept of blindness is actually about toleration and forgiving. When we say that love is blind, we are actually referring to things we pass over. We accept everything coming from our loved one. That's pure blindness. Because we cut ourselves from our reason listening only to our heart. And sometimes, the heart is the wrong one.

They say, love is weakness. While they also say, that nothing could ever be stronger than love.

So I'm asking, what is love?

Because that week, I would wake myself up early enough for wishing you a good day and you would get to sleep lately enough for you not to have enough sleep. I don't remember what we did talk about. I think it was about all and nothing, it could have been about our hopes or our projects as it could have been about your neighbourhood or the place we like best. It never mattered if our subjects were nonsense or if they were deep big conversations. It never mattered. Because talking with you was it.

We had those shooting stars moments. That's how we call them. Those moments that make you glad to have them. Those moments that make you glad to remember them. When you said you loved me back, that was one of them. I think we loose count of them. There were not so many, but there were still a few. Like a shooting star, it was all sparkles and then shattered pieces.

And when I came back from Florida, with my 3 am flight, I saw when I was waiting at the airport, that Daniel, Aryn and you tried to stay up until my departure. But you went all to sleep, Daniel first, then Aryn and you tried defeat sleep but you couldn't.

And then, I was back home. At school, mostly every one knew. But between us, nothing really changed.

One day I came up with Idol of the day, that person who would brighthen my day or help me in any kind of way, and strangely, that person appears to be you at every degrees.

I talked alot with William about us. He was the one pushing us.

On March 22nd, while on Facetime, we had made a list of what we loved the most. I was on top of yours as you were on top of mine. You said yourself that your list was lame. Listing xbox, friends and even oranges was lame, indeed. And you said I was the only thing that made sense on that stupid list.

But between that, there was this other story coming up. The one about Jilian. That was Daniel's fault. He told her that you loved her. Which you told me, was entirely wrong and that there was nothing to worry about. You did say it with uglier words though. I wouldn't say cursed one, but bad ones.

Daniel looked like he was making everything in is possible to break things between us. Like relating all things she said about you. Like how she tought you were cute and all. And something about your smile.

Saying I was a bit jealous, I don't know.

Well you did say once that you would see us married.

I think that you never had a problem with picturing our future together. As for me, I wasn't convicted as you. With my past experience with love, it all ended quickly and future of us never really happened. So even if you were pretty sure of it, it kind of scared the shit out of me. At first, but then I got used to it.

If that couldn't be possibly love. Then I don't know.

Because I'm pretty sure that what we had was love. Once.