Why we broke up [Editing]

My heart stops when you look at me

On April 6, we saw each other for the second time, out of school.

When I stepped in your house, your mom said to me that she had heard about me a lot. I smiled.

Some weeks later, we were holding hands and you were waiting by my locker for me to arrive every mornings or so.

I do remember that every morning you were there, I knew it before I even saw you. Part of me always knew if you were waiting for me or not. You did say to me that you were always waiting for me to arrive and you once told yourself how lucky you were while watching me unlock my locker.

Meanwhile, Aryn finally answered Josh. When everybody taught we would make it before them, they all turned wrong.

Somewhere in between weeks, we were sitting next to each other in English class. And one day I had spotted the word Salsa in the dictionary and after showing it to you, Josh, who was sitting just behind us, asked the meaning of it. You just said that it was an inside and smiled. I returned your smile back.

Then somehow, we had fall into a kind of routine, the morning we sat with my friends and at recess and at dinner, we would sit with yours, only that because you were eating faster than I was.

We kissed for the first time on May 10th. It was a Friday night and after school we went to your home. When we were leaving, we crossed William and Daniel, they both wished you luck. That evening, we jumped on the trampoline and I had supper with you and your brother. I was beginning to be a bit cold so you passed me your favorite red sweater and we headed back in. We watched my favourite movie at that time, Prom.

Just before leaving, you had stopped me and leaned in to kiss me. Then you said that you loved me.

You said long time after that, that you didn't even remember saying that, That you never planned to say it like that, it just came out.

After that, we did asked if it was official, we didn't know, none of us knew.

On May 25th, we decided to create a brand new anniversary. We called it the Planet's Day. Well, you decided to, because I was busy playing with your cat. I don't remember why Planet's Day. I don't think there was ever a reason. Back then it could have represented Universe. I don't think there was a purpose to that celebration. It's not like you needed one. I'd have celebrate anything with you.

On February 21st, you were at your hockey game and at 11:10 you were supposed to be on the ice to warm up and at 11:11 you texted me.

Suddenly we talked everyday, suddenly we weren't only two separate persons in some dimensions. Suddenly we were something for each other. Just because one day I sent you a text message. I don't even remember why for. That was all it took us, a simple first text to fall in love. And having a us. For being together.

I don't think fate brought us together. I don't even know how we ended up so. All I know is that we did love each other. But we made decisions and things tore us apart, if it wasn't from ourselves.

But that love. That love was something. All we had, bad things and great things were all something. I'm not sure if they all happened for a reason. But that's the thing with reality. Something you have to figure it out all by yourself.