Why we broke up [Editing]

Messing up and Breaking up

How we broke up is quite simple.

I think we were fighting. It paused when I went to the swimming pool. And probably did not start at school, we rarely fought at school. It must have began after school or maybe the day before, I don't really remember.

When I came back, you plead me to talk to William, I don't know why. You just asked it.

But I didn't wanted to talk to William, I had nothing to say to William. I thought that it would be a bad idea involving William in this. He didn't need to be put between our fights. And for God's sake, William isn't a freacking psychologic even though he firmly belive in that.

But whatever, involving William was way out of bounds for me. I didn't want him to be aware of every problems we had.

And I was pretty mad at you so I didn't wanted to do what you asked.

Just before I finally agreed to talk to William you said it was okay, I hadn't to talk to him and to just call you after I showered.

So that's what I did. And I took time to think about it clearly in the shower, I don't know why but thinking in the shower is a very common thing. It doesn't only washes your body it washes your worries away too. If you take the time to think about them as well.

As soon as I got back to my room I called you.

We talked very briefly, I think we did more of arguing than anything.

Just before you said those words.

It's over.

No more, no less. Those three words no one wants to hear. We got I love you, the three words we all want to hear and It is over definitely doesn't replace it.

I never expected that. I never expected you breaking up with me. Perhaps I was too optimist or blind or just gullible or simply not realist. Or, surely not on the same page as you.

When I realized what was happening, tears came running down my face.

So I hung up.

And cried.

On November 28th, you manage to break two things, our relation and my heart. None of those two did bounce. It just shattered.

Because you know what, you did not just break up with me, you also did break my heart.