Why we broke up [Editing]

The one where you find another half that seems to be the one

Where you have their hand, their soul, their heart.
Where the "lives to be" are tangled, where the teasing games are clear on what they want and on what they mean.
But still, it wasn't quite us.

On February 14th, we all went sking and snow-boarding and sliding in tubes. Lucas and you were the only guys of your group that actually didn't snow-board or ski. You did come with us twice, but you were there, sitting all afternoon long on that non-confortable looking old bench. As for me, I was sitting with Aryn and Damien, who didn't feel that well. I was constantly looking outside, right at the place you were sitting outside.

Aryn and I finally went out. Only for arguing on whether or not I should go and talk to you. Well, she was a yes and I was a no. While discussing she was always like:

"Hey, he's looking right at you"

And guess what, somehow I kind of won, because I never went talking to you even though I wanted to so badly. Well I was much more kind of hoping you'd come first.

We also had that 11:11 thing. We never wanted to miss them and I think we kind of wished the same things.

A while later, on Monday with no class, Aryn, Josh, you and I were all gathering at Josh's house to watch the Titanic, which I had never watched before. I had sat next to you, still quite far though. It was one hundred pourcent pure akwardness. But then again, there was something bothering me, and I couldn't watch Titanic attentively. And that something was you. Because I was aware of you sitting next to me. Because I was aware of me sitting next to you.

Weeks later, we had to declaim a slam - that's a kind of poem by the way and I think I still can't make the difference, but whatever-. That was February 28th. That day you had accompany William, who was also participating as a slam declaimer, to the practice. While waiting for the teacher to come in, you sat next to Nicole. And after the practice, you head back to your class. And I may had asked you why you sat next to her. You said that it was because they're was no empty seat next to me. But there was.

As I was stepping on the scene I heard someone yell.

"Michael is looking at you"

That's what I heard. And I think I could point out the one who said that. It was Daniel. And frankly, I was aware that all your attention was on me and I tried not to focus on that.

When I went downstairs, Mary-Ann grabbed my arm and asked me if I was in love with you. And I said no.

Because I didn't want you to know that right at the moment I was lying. I wasn't pretty sure if it was love yet, but it kind of looked like it back then. And well, I was afraid you didn't feel the same way, so before spreading any news, I decided to kept it secret a while.

And that was the thing, we were talking nearly every day, everyone knew it but yet, there was no need to rush in. And I have to admit, love was kind of a big deal. If it even was love.

But I do think it was love. I think. I was falling in love with you. And so were you.