Everything About You

Chapter 48

"Our third song will be the last song for tonight's performance everyone. Thank you!" Zky said after ng mga sigawan ng manunuod dahil sa kilig sa nangyaring pag-propose kanina.

Inaya akong umupo nalang nina Julia pati na rin si Ate Aijenn ng mapansing parang wala na ako sa sarili at bahagyang natutumba na sa kinatatayuan ko.

Nagpatianod ako sa paghila nila sakin at pabagsak na umupo sa couch kung saan ako nakapwesto kanina.

"I've watched those eyes light up with a smile
River in the not good times
Oh, you taught me all that I know
I've seen your soul grow just like a rose
Made it through all of those thorns
Girl into the woman I know"

Zky's voice filled my ears like lullaby. It made me feel so sleepy more.

"And it's killing me, me to say "I'm fine," "I'm fine"
When I really mean, mean to say..."

He pauses for a bit at napadilat naman ang inaantok kong mata para silipin sya. I saw him looking intently at me kahit na nasa gilid ako ngayon at nakaupo na ay nakita nya parin ako. Hindi ko alam ano bang nagyari bakit parang mas nalalasing yata ako sa titig nya ngayon kaysa sa alak kanina.

"You're my all and more
All I know you taught me, yeah
You're my all and more
But I need room to breathe, yeah"

Napainom ako ng wala sa loob dahil ngayon lang pumasok sa utak ko kung ano yung kinakanta nya. And it gave me the same effect like the first time I heard him say that to me. A memory flashes inside my mind, high school days, him beside me, sharing the same earphone and him looking so sleepy telling me those phrases I can't even forget even if I tried so hard to. At mas lalo kong naramdaman ngayon dahil kinakanta nya ito habang mariing nakatitig sa mga mata ko.

"I found New York laying in your arms
We'll melt into the bedroom floor
Never knew I'd stay for so long"

Ramdam na ramdam ko ang alak na gumuguhit sa lalamunan ko pagkatapos kong tunggain ang boteng nasa harap na para bang makakatulong ang alak para makalimutan ko kung ano man ang tumatakbo sa isipan ko ngayon.

"And this truth cuts not through one, but both
Not through one, but both of us
But it's deeper if I hold on"

I saw him glared at me ng matapos kong ubusin ang laman ng bote. His eyes darkened and his jaw clenched while staring at me intently. Nakatitig ako pabalik sa kanya pero hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko ngayon habang nagtitinginan kaming dalawa.

"And it's killing me, me to say "I'm fine," "I'm fine"
When I really mean, mean to say..."

He pauses again and sigh a bit.

"You're my all and more
All I know you taught me, yeah
You're my all and more
But I need room to breathe, yeah"

I opened my mouth, sinabayan ko ang kanta nya na para bang alam na alam ko iyon, hindi lang ng sarili kundi pati ang puso ko.

I notice that everyone in our couch became quiet when they heard me sing. I look at them, gulat na mga nakatitig at naka-awang ang labi na nakabaling sakin habang ako'y sumasabay sa pagkanta ni Zky. I ignored them and close my eyes tightly ng maramdaman ang pamilyar na sakit na naramdaman ko when I bid my last goodbye to him.

"Gotta breathe for me, it's now or never
Gotta breathe for me, it's now or never"

"I should leave, 'cause you deserve better, better"

Yes Zky, I left you because I think I don't deserve you. That Farrah deserves you more than I so I set you free even if it's killing me...

"Gave my all and more
But I need room to be me"