Everything About You

Chapter 54

I don't know how will I go home now that Cloud is gone and I don't bring my own car too. Should I ask my cousin to fetch me here or should I jump into Julia or Ate Aijenn's car which I'm sure they are with their boyfriends.

"Cr lang ako. Paalam ko kin Julia at tinanguan lang naman nila ako.

Pagtapos kong umuhi ay bahagya kong inayos ang buhok at nag-retouch na rin, naglagay ng konting lipstick because it was ruined a while ago.

I was about to exit the comfort room ng biglang may humila sakin papasok sa isang secluded place. Sisigaw n asana ako para huming ng tulong ng makilala ko kung sino ang humila sakin.

"What the hell Muller! You scared the shit out of me!" I hissed and he just chuckled.

"We're escaping this goddamn party baby it's too boring plus gusto na kitang solohin" he said at saka agad akong hinila sa exit ng venue. Okay what about me? I want to bid my proper goodbye to my friends or even to Talia, I wasn't even giving her gift! My goodness!

Agad na bumungad sa parking ang kanyang grey Aston Martin. He guided me to slid inside at pagkatapos ay dumiretso na sa driver's seat.

Hindi sya nagsalita at tahimik lang na pinaandar ang sasakyan papalayo sa venue. Maybe it's time. Walang mangyayari at mananatili lang ang mga tanong sakin habang buhay kung hahayaan kong kainin nanaman ako ng takot ko.

He drove fast and that made me look on the road. That's when I notice that we're not going home, papalayo ito sa building ng condo ko. Saan ako balak dalin ng mokong na ito?

"Where are we going?" I asked sabay sulyap sakanya.

He smirked at my question but his eyes remained focus on the road. "To my favorite place."

Hindi na ako kumibo at hinayaan nalang na mag-drive sya. Wherever is his favourite place is, I don't care I just want us to talk, to clear things out. To clear everything that's been long overdue for seven years already.

Kinain naman ng nakakabinging katahimikan ang pagitan naming dalawa making the atmosphere awkward. Wala sa loob ko namang pinindot ang stereo trying to let music save the awkward dead air between us.

"You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
I know you want me
So don't keep saying our hands are tied
You claim it's not in the cards
Fate is pulling you miles away
And out of reach from me
But you're here in my heart
So who can stop me if I decide
That you're my destiny?"

I sighed heavily and tried to calm my frantically beating heart. It's always like this when we are together, when he is this close to me. Palaging ganito kabilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Palaging nagwawala ang nasa loob ko. This is how he always affects me. But the ironic thing is even how fast my heart beats when he is around, I am always comfortable when I am with him. His presence is always comforting me. The fast beating of my heart doesn't hurt but comforts me and gives me joy for I don't know reason.

"What if we rewrite the stars?
Say you were made to be mine
Nothing could keep us apart
You'd be the one I was meant to find
It's up to you, and it's up to me
No one can say what we get to be
So why don't we rewrite the stars?
Maybe the world could be ours
Tonight"

God knows how I wish you to be mine. Mommy knows how much I was hurt after finding out the truth. And I know to myself that how much I tried to buried you and forget, you're always here in my heart and I will always feel something for you like I've never been hurt by you.

"You think it's easy
You think I don't want to run to you
But there are mountains
And there are doors that we can't walk through
I know you're wondering why
Because we're able to be
Just you and me
Within these walls
But when we go outside
You're going to wake up and see that it was hopeless after all"

I want to run away from the truth, from the pain and from everything I'm scared about but I know I can't just always walk away. I have to learn and face everything bravely even if I got hurt and stumbled in the end. I have to overcome those fears to be strong even if it will break me in the end.

"No one can rewrite the stars
How can you say you'll be mine?
Everything keeps us apart
And I'm not the one you were meant to find
It's not up to you
It's not up to me
When everyone tells us what we can be
How can we rewrite the stars?
Say that the world can be ours
Tonight"

Seven years ago I'm a teenager who's scared to experience pain, to face problems, to be betrayed, to get cheated on that's why I choose to run away. To run away from the truth that I know might hurt me in the end. To run away from everything I don't want to know but I know I can't be always like that.

"All I want is to fly with you
All I want is to fall with you
So just give me all of you"

All I know right now is that, I have to stop being afraid and overcome those fears. Unti-unti kailangan kong pakawalan ang sarili sa takot at hayaan ang sariling maging malaya. And I will start it tonight by admitting what I've been denying for years.

"It feels impossible (it's not impossible)
Is it impossible?

Say that it's possible"

Alam ko, imposible ng mabago manang kung ano nangyari noon but I can change what will happen to us in the future now.

"How do we rewrite the stars? Say you were made to be mine? Nothing can keep us apart 'Cause you are the one I was meant to find It's up to you And it's up to me No one can say what we get to be And why don't we rewrite the stars? Changing the world to be ours" I heard Zky's cold soothing voice echoed in the car ng bigla nyang sabayan ang kanta. I look at him and gave him a genuine smile. How I wish I was really made to be yours, how I wish no one can really keep us apart this time, baby because I'm willing to risk everything now.

He smiled back at me but his eyes are still cold maybe his eyes are hiding the anger and the questions he wants to ask me.

"You know I want you
It's not a secret I try to hide
But I can't have you
We're bound to break and my hands are tied"

Nanatili akong tahimik habang sya naman ay ibinaling na ulit ang tingin sa kalsada. After an hour of driving we arrived in front of a huge house.

"Welcome to my safe haven mon amour" he whispered as he hold my hand and guide me to enter the door.

I was so in awe as I look around the inside of the house. It doesn't look extravagant but it's simple but elegant on the inside. I have to praise who design this house. It's so beautiful and creative. The interiors are just three colors, black, grey and white. Classic and manly.

Zky pulled me and lead me outside ng mabuksan nya ang glass sliding door. Paglabas ko ay mas lalo akong namangha. Isang malawak na Bermuda grass ang bumungad sakin at kapag tumingin ka sa harap ay makikita mo ang overlooking view ng Taal lake kahit na medyo malayo ito sa kinatatayuan ng bahay ay tanaw parin ito.

I could live in here! It's away from the toxic city of Manila and it's so relaxing. I inhaled the cold air and close my eyes tightly feeling the peacefulness of the place. I felt Zky pulled me closer to his arms and place his large hand on my shoulder covering it making me feel warm.

"You own this place?" aniya ko ng mahanap ang nawalang dila ko dahil kanina pa ako nakatahimik.

"I build everything." He said na syang nagpatitig sakin sa kanya. Wow, that means he design it himself huh.

I nodded and quietly sit on the bermuda grass. He sat beside me and pulled me close to him more when he notice the space I made between us.

"Can you tell me I'm not dreaming? That I am here with you for real?" he asked pleading me to answer his bidding. I chuckled and pinch his right cheek.

"Aww!" he complained and hold the cheek that I pinched. "You aren't dreaming Allistair, I'm real." I whispered and he cocked his head on me and his intense eyes met mine.

"Damn baby, you look perfect." Aniya na nagpamula naman ngmuka ko kaya naman mahina syang natawa. "I want to kiss you right now." Bigla ay hinila nya ako palapit sa kanya. Our nose touched and my gaze turned to his cherry red lips.

He smiled before claiming my lips like the way he first kissed me on our first date, gentle, loving and passionate. I kissed him back with equal gentleness and passion. He sucked my lower lip as he ended the kiss.