Everything About You

Chapter 52

Bumalik ako sa venue na parang walang nangyari. Nakita ko naman na halos lahat ng bisita ay nagsasayaw sa gitna with their boyfriends. Oh,please spare me with this love bullshit!

Kumuha ako ng isang shot ng margarita at ininom ito. What was that mean? Zky doesn't love Farrah? And they aren't married yet? After all those fucking years that I believe they are in love with each other and that I am a hindrance between the two of them, malalaman ko ngayon na mali ang pinaniwalaan ko? Na nagpauto lang ako sa mga sinabi ni Farrah noon? And that I've been hurt and broken for nothing? Well fucked that!

I look around and saw a pair of grey eyes staring intently at me. His eyes look so cold and serious. His intense stares are making me shiver and turning my knees into jelly. I can't stand properly.

I want to look away but I don't want him to think I am avoiding him so I returned his stares and wait for him to give up first. I saw how hi drink the alcohol in his glass. His adams apple goes up and down sexily as he drink everything in the glass. He licked his lips and put the glass down. I blinked and tried to look at him bravely again, he smirk at me and I remain serious even though I am already shaking inside.

He stands up and told his friends something which I bet our classmate too way back. They all nodded at him and he started taking huge step on his way to me. Ibinaba ko ang baso na may lamang margarita ng makalapit sya.

I tried so hard to look serious, cold and stoic but I'm sure nervousness won't leave me that easy and it's so obvious in my face right now.

He pulled me closer to him ng makalapit sya at kinuha ang hawak-hawak kong baso saby binaba ito sa malapit na lamesa samin. His large hand comfortably rests on the small of my back and the other one caress my face gently as he stared intently at me. "You look so perfect tonight baby and you're mine." He whispered sexily at my ear as he put my hands on his nape like it is where it should be.

I couldn't react or even protest, dahil sa mas inaalala ko ang kung paano biglang nagbago ang tibok ng puso ko papabilis at kung paano muling nabuhay ang mga paru-paro sa tyan ko na matagal ko ng hindi nararamdaman.

He's the only one who can make me feel this way. I never felt this with anyone, sa dami nang nanligaw, sumubok at nagpakita ng pagkagusto sakin sa mga nakalipas na taon, its is only him who can make my heart race and the butterflies on my stomach wild. It is him who always makes me this nervous at the same time comfortable.

"I'd like to say we gave it a try
I'd like to blame it all on life
Maybe we just weren't right,
But that's a lie, that's a lie"

He swayed and pulled me in the middle of the dance floor, nagpadala ako sa hila nya at hinayaan sya sa gusto nya. His grey cold and dark eyes are focus on me as his both hands are on my waist pulling me closer and never wanting to let me escape from his hold nor from his arms.

"And we can deny it as much as we want
But in time our feelings will show"

I have hated this man for thinking that he fooled and lied to me. I hated him for years just because I believe he was inlove with someone while doing those sweet stuffs to me. Nagalit ako sa kanya kasi akala ko pinaniwala nya lang ako sa lahat. Akala ko ginawa nya lang yon dahil sa utang na loob sakin sa pagsagip ko sa buhay nya. Now I don't know what to believe. Now I'm confused of what's really the truth.

"'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knows"

Maybe he's wondering why I leave him and avoided him for years. Maybe he's finding an apparent reason why I did that. 'cause I know he's thinking I wasn't fair for not trying to continue kahit na magkalayo kami. He said we can try everything kahit magkalayo kami, he said he will always compromise and distance won't be a problem to us pero hindi ako pumayag dahil nga iba ang pinaniwalaan ko noon.

"Almost, almost is never enough
So close to being in love
If I would have known that you wanted me
The way I wanted you
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each others arms"

We are almost on our way to our fairy tale love story but I choose to end and set him free for thinking it's the right thing to do. Na kahit na nahulog na ako sa kanya noon ay hindi parin tamang ipagpatuloy ang samin because he love someone else and he is bound to marry someone else too kaya pinili kong umalis para hindi gawing kumplikado ang lahat. That maybe if he didn't see me, he'll forget about the accident and he'll stop feeling guilty and that he will finally pursue what's meant for him.

"Here we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough"

I choose to hurt myself by letting him go even if I don't want to dahil akala ko'y sasaya sya kapag ginawa ko yon. I thought I choose his happiness over mine but I was wrong. Ngayon ko lang napagtanto na mali ako, ngayon lang pagkatapos kong masaksihan ang paguusap nila ni Farrah. I was so wrong for jumping into conclusions. I was eaten by the jealousy and anger for years.

"If I could change the world overnight
There'd be no such thing as goodbye
You'll be standing right where you were
And we'd get the chance we deserve oh"

I feel sorry for myself for what happened. I feel so much regret for not telling him what is really wrong, why I suddenly choose to leave him. Yet I feel so confuse with what's really the truth. Bakit hindi natuloy ang kasal nila? Bakit kailangan sabihin sakin ni Farrah ang mga bagay na iyon noon?

"Try to deny it as much as you want
But in time our feelings will show"

What happened years ago? Farrah said they love each other? And is I am the one stopping them to do that because Zky wants to take care of me.

"'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
Truth is everyone knows"

And I must say that Zky did a great job taking care of me and making me happy years ago. What he did made me fell so loved that's why I fall for his traps.

"Almost, almost is never enough (Is never enough, babe)
We were so close to being in love (So close)
If I would have known that you wanted me, the way I wanted you, babe
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each others arms"

My mind's in chaos. I don't know what to believe where to ask or even what to do. But one thing's for sure, I want to know everything. But how?

"And we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough"

I looked up at him and saw him already staring at me. His hard, dark and cold eyes turned to soft and caring and loving? I'm not sure. I closed my eyes as I felt his lips on my forehead. Alright Zky, nothing has changed! You really know how to make my heart race hundred times faster than its normal pace.

"Game over baby, I won't let you run away from me again." he whispered and pulled me for a hug.

"I'm home, finally after seven years." He sexily whispered again on my ear as he hugged me tight.

Right, I know baby... I'm home too.