Everything About You

Chapter 50

Hindi ako nakapag-salita pagkatapos nyang sabihin yon. Napayuko nalangako na para bang kasalanan ko ang nangyari samin noon. That I am the one to blame because I choose to walk away. I choose to end things with him without considering his feelings. That I choose to leave him and start something new without him being involved with it. At bakit ba parang sobrang guilty ko? Bakit ako nagi-guilty habang nakatitig sya sakin at nag-aantay ng sagot ko.

Nakayukong naglakas loob akong nagsalita. "Sorry, but I know I did the right thing. I just made things easier for you..." I whispered.

I heard the loud tap on the table making all the things above shake a bit. At mariin akong napapikit sa ginawa nya at hindi magaawang magangat ng tingin. I was only looking at my hands place above my thighs like I am being scolded for what I did wrong.

"Bullshit!" He cursed after the noise created by the table followed by his heavy breathing. I know for sure that he is intently glaring at me right now even I can't see it with my eyes.

"Wait for me, I'll drop you to your condo. I'll just take a bath." He said it coldly and I heard the heavy footsteps walking away from the kitchen. Noon lang ako naglakas loob na magtaas ng ulo. I saw his back and his hardened muscles flexed with his every step.

My eyes suddenly blurs because of the tears I didn't want to entertain but it fell on my face endlessly habang nakikita ko syang lumalakad palayo sa kung nasaan ako. So this is how it feels when someone you didn't expect to leave turn his back and walk away. My chest hurts in his every step like it stabs a knife on my heart with every distance that his feet take.

Agad kong pinilit ang sariling tumahan at pinalis ang mga luhang nasa pisngi ko. I won't be a cry baby for the same reason. I've known better. I don't deserve this! I will not waste my precious tears to him again.

Tumayo ako at iniligpit ang pinagkainan. I wash the dishes too. Since he told me he'll take a bath, I might as well entertain myself here. I saw a half open door beside Zky's room and maybe I am too curious to enter it without having second thoughts and without thinking about Zky's reaction if he ever found me in here.

The room looks so empty but it was filled with photos. Photos I didn't know taken. Naka- kalat ang mga litrato sa loob ng kwarto na parang ginawa lang iyon para dito. I was amazed by how beautifully arrange the photos are.

The room is like an exhibit made for me...puno ng pictures ko ang kwartong iyon, mga pictures na hindi ko alam kung saan at kalian kinuhanan. I frowned when my eyes found a familiar one...it's my graduation day, high school to be exact. I am raising my medals proudly smiling and looking at my parents. Lalong napakunot ang nook o ng mapagtanto kung bakit may ganito akong mga picture dito. Who captured this? and why is Zky have this?

Gusto ko pa sanang tingnan ang mga ibang picture pero nagmamadali akong lumabas ng silid at ibinalik sa dating ayos ang pintuan ng marinig ang kaluskos sa katabing kwarto. Maybe he's done taking a bath huh.

I unconsciously put my hand on my chest at inantay ko namang kumalma ang kabog ng dibdib ko paglabas ng kwartoat pagkatapos ay inayos ko ang damit na kagabi ko pa suot at ipinusod ang nakalugay na mahabang kulot na buhok. I made a messy bun to my hair and look in the full body mirror making sure that even if I look wasted from last night's party I still look fine and presentable.

Isinuot ko ang high cut na converse at uupo n asana para itali ng biglang sumulpot si ZKy sa malapit at tumingin sa balak kong gawin. Nahihirapan man ay sinubukan ko paring yumuko para itali ang sintas nagiingat nab aka masyado ng nagpapakita ng balat at lalo na ayokong tumuwad nalang basta dito. Before I could even sit Zky kneel in front of me and pulled my foot. Muntik man akong matumba sa ginawa nya ay mas naisip ko parin ang mga ala-alang bumalik sa isip ko when he tied my shoelaces.