Bouquet of Rosés

brother | bts' jin

before you think about it, no this isn't incest.

j i n . r o s é
[bts . blackpink]

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- in which she's in love with the guy who treats her like a sister

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I've always liked Kim Seokjin for a long time. However, he's not really aware of it. After all, he's too bothered by the fact that I was too clumsy and such a klutz.

For freakin' eleven years. He was like 23 while I'm 20. I'm already old! He always act like an older brother when I completely didn't need one.

He used to wear glasses when we were young, but that all changed when we grew up. He's starting to have a complete appearance. His used-to-be nerdy style turned into more fashionable.

Well, mine too. But... not that much. I was really boyish when we're young, I often steal Jin's old shirts to make fashionable (yet boyish) clothes out of it.

He doesn't get mad, though.

Jin always act like a brother to me, but there are times when he's acting weirdly.

Everytime a guy asks me out, he'll suddenly appear out of nowhere and reject the guy in my place. Well, I've no plan for dating, anyway.

There are times that he'll get sweet. Asks me out for a movie. Treat me to a fast food. Accompany me to buy an attire, which leads in going to an arcade since we love it both more than anything.

I don't want to make assumptions. After all, he thinks of himself as my older brother.

Nothing else.

One time, I had a crush on some guy named Im Jaebum. I thought, 'Should I try?'

Jaebum has lots of similarities with Jin, such as their cooking skills and they're both responsible. But they are also different.

I have a crush towards Jaebum.

But I know I only love one person; Kim Seokjin.

"Hey, Jin." I started as I fiddled with my fingers. I didn't know why, nor how it happened. But Jin lives with me under the same roof for as long as I can remember.

We live like a pair of siblings. And that's making me more anxious and stressed every day.

'How can I confess?! Jin just sleeps at the next room! It'll be awkward when the time comes!'

"Yes?" He stopped eating and looked at me.

I gulped.

"Uh... You know... Well..." He frowned, trying to understand what I was trying to say.

"Uh... I like this guy from one of my classes and he asked me—"

"Nope." He shook his head. "No."

I frowned, "Why?"

"Just no." He finished his meal. I stomped my feet. "How can that be?! I'm already 20! I shouldn't even bothered to ask you! But you're my older brother so I need to ask for your permission!"

"I know Im Jaebum. Even though that guy has good reputation, who knows what's behind his mask."

"You're too cautious."

"Anything for you."

Suddenly, I can't handle it anymore.

"Jin, stop." I shakily said. "You know me, I don't usually give a meaning to everything. But I always, almost hope that everything you do for me has a meaning. But then the thought of you still thinking that you need to protect me like an older brother stops me."

"I'm nothing more than a younger sister, and I hate it." I said. "I love you, Jin. But this is too much."

After that, everything seems to change. Jin doesn't talk to me that much. We don't hang-out anymore. He's always gone.

In frustration, I've cried my eyes out until I fell asleep. Ever since I've confessed, this has been my routine.

I rejected Jaebum's offer for a date just like everyone else. I continued to study to be a famous designer. Everytime I got home, no one will greet me since he's always out.

I couldn't help but tear up.

Maybe I shouldn't have confessed. And so maybe, this won't happened.

I should have been satisfied already. Unlike other girls like me who has unrequited love, Jin treats with care and love... a different kind of love.

After a shower and a change of clothes, I went to the kitchen only to see Jin kissing another woman. His eyes widened and pushed the woman away.

It was like my voice was stuck. It was like I wasn't allowed to breathe anymore. Everything hurts.

"I'm going out." I muttered and quickly went to the door. "Chaeyoung!" He called.

It was night already but I don't care. I quickly went at the village's playground and started to cry.

Not fair! It's not fair! I loved him for a long time and I haven't kissed him! And then that hoe just—?!

"Chaeyoung..."

"Go away." Was my instant response.

"No. I won't. It's been a long time since I've been avoiding you. And it was painful for me too."

"Shut up." I puffed my cheeks. He raised his hand and caressed my own. His thumb was rubbing the back of my hand gently. I couldn't help but blush.

"I love you."

"Wait, what?" I blinked. He what?

"Look, if you're trying to comfort me, just do nothing at all!" I stood up.

He pulled me back, "Could you stop being such a cutie and listen first?"

I puffed my cheeks.

"The reason why I think I can't be with you..." he sighed when I put my hands on my ears.

"Nope, I don't wanna hear it!"

"Chaeyoung..." He called. "I love you. But you know I don't like the thought of hurting you."

"Love comes along with pain." I said. "You love me, there will be times we'll fight and we'll hurt each other. But that means we both care and love each other. Don't be scared of the thought of me crying because of you. Be scared of the possibility I might not be in love with you anymore. As long as I cry because it hurts, then it's okay. That means I still love you."

"I won't be scared." He muttered. "Not of the possibility of you not loving me anymore. I won't let that happen."

Surprise took over me when he leaned closer and pecked my lips. "That woman was just an officemate. Apparently, she has the hots for me. But don't worry, she's nothing when it comes to you."

I pursued my lips. He smiled, "I'm yours. Don't ever forget that, Chae."

"Does that mean you're finally my boyfriend?"

His smile disappeared. "Nope. You have to get through my walls first."

"What the?! We've known each other for eleven years and I have to get through your walls?!"

"Kidding," he chuckled. "How I love seeing you angry. You looks so cute. You would probably look like that in the future. The time we will have kids."

"Wait, what?" I blinked.

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JinRose!!! This ship wasn't particularly popular at the start. I saw some but they either not good or not in English (I wish I can speak and read every languages).

They're cute. This one-shot is inspired by a story written by rojefied. :) If you want to request, just PM me.