Fire and Passion( Sequel to Potter and Farron)(Completed)

18. Loss

Juliet's POV:
Nikki and I were sitting in the common room on Saturday afternoon. I was kinda on edge. I hadn't felt the baby kick in a few hours. I just sat there looking out the window. Nikki may have been talking to me. I wasn't paying attention. "Juliet! You alive in there?!" She asks snapping her fingers in my face to get my attention. I snap back to reality. " Sorry..." I say glumly. "What's wrong Juliet?" She asks. " I haven't felt the baby kick in a few hours..." I say fear lacing my voice. "It's probably okay. It's probably just sleeping." Nikki says taking my hand in effort to comfort me. I nod. "Oh my God. Jay your bleeding." Nikki says looking at my pants. I look down at my white pants. Fuck. " Nik... Send someone to get Ced... He's at quidditch practice... I need to get to the hospital wing..." I say panicking. That's when the twins walk in. "Fred, George! Go get Ced from Quidditch practice! I have to make sure Juliet to the hospital wing! No time for questions go!" Nikki pushes them out and then hurries to me. "Come on." She says holding out her hand to help me up. I get up slowly but then a wave of pain hits me. I scream out in pain. Nikki helps hold me up as we make our way to the hospital wing. " What's going on?!?" Madame Pomphrey asks frantically as we walk in. I can't speak the pain is too much. "I don't know. She started bleeding and then was in pain." Nikki explains holding me up. " Is she pregnant?" Madame Pomphrey asks quickly. Nikki nods. " I think she is having a miscarriage..." Madame Pomphrey says. No. I can't loose my baby. "What?" Nikki asks as she carefully helps me to one of the beds. " We just have to wait... It should only be a few more minutes..." Madame Pomphrey says. Tears stream down my face as I scream out in pain. Nikki sits next to me and takes my hand for me to squeeze from the pain. After a few minutes the pain stops. Madame Pomphrey takes off my pants and cleans the blood up. She puts a blanket over me. " You need lots of rest..." She says with a sympathetic look. I bite my lip as tears stream down my face.

That's when Ced rushes into the hall. "Baby what happened?!" He asks stopping once he gets to my side. The twins walk in. Nikki walks to Fred. Tears are running down her face like me. " I lost it Ced..." I say not looking him in the eye. I can't. "What? You lost what? What do you mean?" He asks confused. " I lost the baby..." I say as tears stream down my face. I close my eyes. Tears form in Ced's eyes. He takes my hand in his. "How?" He asks quietly. " I don't know... I hadn't felt it kick for a few hours and I was starting to worry then Nikki noticed I was bleeding... I'm so sorry..." I say breaking down. "It's not your fault." He says and sits next to me. He leans over and kisses my head. I just break down crying. My baby was just gone. I felt so empty. Ced is crying as well. " What if it was my fault? What if I did something wrong?" I ask my mind going a million places. "It's not your fault. No one did anything wrong. It just happened." Ced says through tears. "He's right. It was a miscarriage. It's pretty common when it comes to losing a baby before birth. I just don't understand why it happened to you. You seemed to have such a healthy pregnancy." Nikki explains confused. " What's the chance of it happening again when we want to have children later?" I ask through the tears. That's the question that's been eating me up. "I think I was a 14 - 21 percent chance it'll happen twice. I doubt it will happen twice." Nikki explains wiping her face with her sleeve. I nod. I finally look at Ced. " Maybe it just wasn't the right time..." I say squeezing his hand. "Maybe." He says kissing the back of my hand. It felt so strange to not feel the small kicks. Though we didn't mean for me to get pregnant we still loved that baby with all of our hearts. " Dumbledore has contacted your families... He didn't tell them what has happened yet... He said it was up to you..." Madame Pomphrey says before walking away. " How are we going to tell them?" I ask my voice cracking. "I don't know. But we will." He says rubbing my hand. I nod.

Then the hospital wing door opens. They must've come by portkey. Claire, Mr. Diggory and Sirius in dog form came rushing down the hall. Realizing we were alone Sirius turned into a human. " Dumbledore said you were in the hospital wing... We came as fast as we could..." Sirius says. "What happened?" Claire asks concerned. " I lost it..." I breath out. "Lost what?" Mr. Diggory asks confused. " The baby..." I say tears streaming down my face. "Oh my goodness! How?" Claire asks. "It was a miscarriage. I don't understand why though." Nikki explains for me. I squeeze Ced's hand. " I hadn't felt it kick for a few hours and I was starting to worry then Nikki noticed I was bleeding..." I say. "She started feeling sudden pains I brought her here and that's how we found out." Nikki finishes. Ced rubs the back of my hand with his thumb. " I just don't know what happened..." I say looking away from them. "I have no idea either. I mean the whole pregnancy seemed healthy." Nikki says. Claire carefully hugs me then stands back up walking next to Sirius. " I should have said something... I was worried something was up after an hour of not feeling a kick... But I pushed it aside... I was so stupid..." I say running a hand through my hair. "You weren't stupid. You probably just brushed it off thinking the baby was asleep. Anyone probably would have done that." Ced says looking into my eyes. " Why do I feel so empty?" I ask no one in perticular. "That's how you feel when you lose someone you love I guess." Nikki says. I just close my eyes. My instinct was to put my hand on my stomach. But I didn't. There was nothing there. Tears stream down my face. " I just can't believe I lost it..." I say crying. Ced holds my hand kissing it every so often to try and calm me down. Nikki looks over out of the hospital wing. "I'll be right back." She says and then walks into the hall. I sigh and lean back trying to calm myself.