Fire and Passion( Sequel to Potter and Farron)(Completed)

20. More Fun

Juliet's POV:

I pull him into the dorm. "Is everything okay?" He asks. " Yeah..." I say turning to him. "Why are we up here?" He asks confused. I bite my lip. "Juliet?" He asks. " Yeah Ced..." I say. "What's wrong?" He asks still sounding confused. " Nothing..." I say. "What are we doing up here?" He asks. I turn around and undo my tie. " Can't I have some alone time with my boyfriend?" I ask giggling. "I mean yeah. Sure." He says sitting on my bed. I walk over and smirk at him. He raises an eyebrow. Ok Jay you can do this. You've done it a million times. It's just Ced. I straddle him. He wraps his arms around my waist. "Juliet?" He asks confused. " Yeah?" I ask. "What are you doing?" He asks. I bite my lip. Ok Jay now or never. " What do you mean what am I doing?" I ask and then grind against him. Ok I got this. He moans lightly as he lays back. I go with him. " You like that?" I whisper in his ear.

I actually feel comfortable. Like it used to be. "Yes..." He moans quietly as his hands travel to my hips. I grind against him again. He bucks his hips and grinds into me. I moan and stabilize myself putting my hands above his head. I look into his eyes and smile. He smiles back. I take one hand and grab his tie. I pull it so his face was centimeters from mine. Our noses were touching. " I love you..." I whisper. "I love you too." He whispers back. He presses his lips to mine and flips us over so he's on top. I giggle against his mouth. I got this. He pulls from the kiss and grabs the hem of my shirt. He looks into my eyes. I nod. "Really?" He asks shocked. " Yeah... I want to try..." I say. He smiles and lifts my shirt over my head. I give him an encouraging smile. He reaches behind my back grabbing my bra and looks into my eyes again. " Yes..." I say. He unhooks it and pulls it off slowly. He leans down and kisses my neck. I moan lightly and grip the sheets. His hands start to massage my breasts. I bite my lip. Your ok Jay. It's fine. Don't get scared. He kisses go down my neck to my chest. I close my eyes and moan. You got this. He kisses down the valley in between my breasts. I moan and bite my lip. It feels so good but I can feel fear start to try to take over. No you got this. It's just Ced. He loves you and he wants to make you feel better. He slowly kisses down my stomach. I moan. He was getting close to down there. My eyes fly open. Jay calm down. You're ok. His hands go to the waist of my pants and he looks up at me. I nod. You got this. He unbuttons my pants and slowly pulls them down. I bite my lip. He pulls his shirt off and then unbuttons his pants pulling them down leaving us both in underwear. I smile at him. I was nervous but I push that aside. He hooks a finger on my panties. He looks at me once again. Alright Jay. Be brave. You got this. I nod. He gives a shocked expression and then pulls down my panties. He pulls his boxers down. I bite my lip at the sight of his growing erection. You got this Jay. He carefully lines up at my entrance looking me in the eyes. I nod. His eyes widen in shock once again. "You sure about this? I don't want to push you." He says. " I'm sure..." I say. I really wasn't. I was nervous as hell. He slowly pushes into me. I moan out and arch my back. Your ok Jay. See it's not that bad.

That's when my head starts to drift. What if I get pregnant again? What if I loose it? No. Snap out of it. Just enjoy this. I want him. He slowly slides in and out of me. I bite my lip to hold in my moan. I grip the sheets. I felt like I had an angel and a devil on my shoulder. The angel convincing me I should do this while the devil says I should stop. God my inner conflict is so complicated. He groan as his thrusts slowly become faster. I moan again. " Ced..." I moan out. The way it came out was strange though. It sounded like I wanted to stop. Suddenly he stops moving. "Did I hurt you?" He asks. " No..." I say quickly. Goddamn my voice. "Juliet what happened?" He asks as he starts to pull out. " No don't..." I say putting my hands to his waist so he didn't pull out. "Juliet I don't want to push you to do anything your not ready to do." He says. " I'm ready... My mind just went somewhere... I'm fine really..." I say. He looks at me worriedly and then nods. He slowly starts to move again keeping an eye on me. I moan out and put a hand to his cheek making sure he knows I'm ok. He slowly picks up his pace groaning. " Fuck..." I moan out. He starts to slow his pace again. I raise an eyebrow. " Did I do something wrong?" I ask. "I was scared I was hurting you..." He admits. " Why would it hurt?" I ask. I was confused. Why was he worried about hurting me? Did he think that was why I was afraid. "Its not just that. I don't want to seem like I'm pushing you to do something you're not ready to do." He says. " Ced I'm fine... I'm not afraid because I think it would hurt..." I say. This was nice normal conversation. You sharing your concerns with your boyfriend in the middle of sex. "I don't want to push you into something you don't want to do or aren't ready to do either." He says. " I'm ready... I'm not afraid of any of those things..." I say rubbing his cheek with my thumb. "Then what are you afraid of?" He asks. He goes to pull out of me again. I grab his waist again. " I'm afraid of getting pregnant again..." I say but keep my hands on his waist so he doesn't pull out. "I'm sorry." He says. " Don't be..." I say. "I don't want to push you into this while your still scared." He says. I sigh. " Ced please just fuck me already..." I say.