love letter ; jihan

Fourth Letter

[10th letter]

Dear Jeonghan,

I feel so happy today.

I found out that you rejected the girl you're talking to, that day.

It's not that I hate the girl. I just want you all to myself. Mine. Only mine.

There are times I get possesive.

When it comes to you, I'll do anything. If dying would cost you, I would die for you no matter what.

I also saw you alone, in the grounds, today.

I wonder why.

I was about to talk to you but I stopped myself. You might think of me as a creepy, weird guy.

Which is true.

I wanted to give these letters to you someday.

Do you know how perfect you look?

The way your lips move when you talk, when you laugh and when you sing.

The way your eyes move when you blink, or even when you cry.

I wanted to hug and comfort you whenever I see you crying. I wanted to tell you soft words to calm you down.

But you know what hurts the most? I can't do those things.

I can't even talk to you. I can't even tell the world how perfect you are.

I have been dying to hug you and kiss you and love you.

After these 24 letters, you won't see me. Forever.

I promise that.

love,
Hong Jisoo ♡

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After I wrote the letter, I sobbed. But I made sure that the letter is dry and safe. He called Hansol and others to come over to his place.

"Why are you crying, Jisoo?" Soonyoung hurriedly and worriedly ran to Jisoo.

"I'm sorry. When the day comes that I ask you to give these letters to Jeonghan, don't search for me." He explained to the five of them.

"What are you even talking about, Jisoo?" Jihoon asked while holding back his tears.

Jihoon already knew what Jisoo was talking about.

"No way— Jisoo, don't do something stupid. Please." Minghao pleaded.

"What are you guys even talking about?" Jisoo asked, smiled at them and wiped his own tears.

"Just promise me, that you won't search for me when you give the box to Jeonghan. Okay? You guys know how much I love him. And I'll do anything. Anything, just for him." Jisoo sweetly told them.

His friends can't do nothing but agree. They know Jisoo doesn't like it when they break promises. He won't get mad, nor he won't forgive them. But he's just going to be disappointed in them.

"Okay, Jisoo. Okay." Soonyoung answered sadly and they all sighed and agreed.

"We'll get going now, Jisoo. Take care." Mingyu said between his sobs.

"Stop crying, Mingyu. I won't do what you think I would. So stop crying now." Then Jisoo smiled at Mingyu sweetly, and sincerely.

"Hyung..." Hansol called out to Jisoo.

"Ye—" but even before Jisoo could say anything to him, Hansol is already hugging the saddened boy.

"Hyung I love you. We all love you. Please don't leave us. We can't continue without you. Please hyung don't..." Hansol said between his cries and while hugging Jisoo.

"Shh now, Hansol." Jisoo now faces Hansol.

"I love you, Jihoon, Soonyoung, Mingyu and Minghao. I love the five of you. Just don't break your promise. Okay? Go home now. It's already late. Take care." Jisoo told them gently and lovingly.

His friends knew how sincere Jisoo is. They know how sweet, caring, gentle and loving he is. That's why they can't live without Jisoo.

While they were walking home, Hansol spoke up. "Shall we tell Jisoo?"

"You know what we promised to him. We promised him that we won't tell Jisoo. And you know how much he sulks and screams when we break promises. Just keep your promises. I'm still thinking of a way." Jihoon told them.

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