love letter ; jihan

Eleventh Letter

[24th Letter, Last letter]

Dear Angel Jeonghan,

Hey, do you know that I miss you? like hell.

Don't worry, my angel. This will be my last letter fo you.

I won't bother you anymore.

I just wanna tell you how much I love you.

I really need someone like you at times like this.

But I can't. You're with someone else's arms at this very moment.

And that someone else, is Seungcheol.

You know? I'm still thankful for Seungcheol.

Because without him, you won't be smiling at this very moment, no one would comfort you, and no one would hold you at this moment.

It's good that he's around.

It's good that he loves you.

It's good that he takes good care of you.

It's good that he protects my angel.

It's good that he's there for you.

I hope he's there for you until the end.

Even if I want you for myself only, I can't.

I really want you to be happy until your last breath. Until you grow old.

I would love to say the statement "I want to grow old with you and spend my lifetime with you."

But I can't even grow old. I can't even breathe like other normal people.

I want to thank you for smiling and laughing.

Your smiles and laughters always made my day.

Even though my life is getting shorter, and shorter every single day, I knew how love felt.

How love makes one happy.

Makes one feel alive.

Ever since I met you, I always felt full.