love letter ; jihan

Eighth Letter

[19th Letter]

Dear Jeonghan,

My dear. I'm sorry I wasn't at school today. :(  [04.18.18]

I'm at the hospital... for some reasons.

I really wanted to see you. I wanted to watch you do your daily life.

I want to hear you laugh.

See you smile.

But I don't want to see you crying.

I hope you didn't cry while I was away.

Even if I'm there, I can't even comfort you while you cry.

But I miss you so bad.

I don't know why I'm still writing a letter for you while I'm in a hospital bed.

But it's for my dear angel. So it'll be fine. ^^

I wanted to tell you my feelings personally.

But I can't.

I'm a stupid, weak, coward. And I can't even talk to you, and your friends.

There's a possibility that you'll laugh at me, or push me away.

It's not that I think that you're a bad person. I'm just afraid that you'll push me away because I'm a weird person.

But, always remember, dear that I love you.

And I always will.

I will NEVER leave your side.

Dead or alive.

Even if you have someone special, I will always be there to support you even if it hurts.

I love you. Remember that. Always.

love,
Hong Jisoo ♡

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After Jisoo wrote his letter and put his pen down, someone texted him. Before he checked his phone, he fixed his nasal cannula first.

It's him again. He's not complaining though. He's kind of making... Jisoo calm himself down. He has this familiar feeling. He felt this before. He just can't remember, still.