love letter ; jihan

Seventh Letter

[18th Letter]

Dear Jeonghan,

I saw you crying again. Why are you always crying these days, angel?

I hate to see you getting hurt.

I'm stopping myself from hugging you, and comforting you.

I really really want to hug you, and protect you. But... I just can't.

I'm sorry I can't protect you the way.... the way...

The way Seungcheol protected you a year ago. I saw how he harmed himself just to protect you.

You almost met an accident while you were crossing the road. But then Seungcheol saw you, walking sadly and slowly. The traffic light signs go. But you're still walking sadly and slowly with your head down.

I was about to run to you at that very moment, but when I was about to get there, Seungcheol already got you.

So I just watched you both. I watched him protect you.

Maybe you have that big problem back then.

I know... it's creepy to have a stalker.

But that's my life. I follow the man I love. That's how my life works.

My life won't process without me, following you.

I sometimes think that I'm crazy thing for following you.

But the reason is...

You're the reason of my laughter.

You're the reason why I feel so alive.

You're the reason why I keep on studying and doing my best.

You're the reason of my everything.

You're the reason why my heart always flutters.

You're the reason of the butterflies inside my stomach.

You're the reason why I smile by the time I open my eyes every morning.

You're the reason why I always forget that I have a cancer...