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JISOO
I slowly opened my eyes after a long time. I was expecting jeonghan in front of me, or beside me. The love of my life. The one I always ran to whenver I'm sad, happy or angry. But sadly, I didn't. I only saw 11 familiar faces looking at me.
Of course I was also glad to see them anticipating, but there's a big part of me that hurts not to see the one I needed the most. The one I wanted to see the most.
I slowly got up and immediately asked, "Where's jeonghan?" Expecting them to answer with something reasonable. Like, "He went downstairs to buy something." or "He went home to change." or "He's in the bathroom."
Their smiles turned into frown, and the only answer I got from seungcheol is, "he left, jisoo."
"Oh. He went to the store? Okay." I answered postively. Hoping to have a chance that he's here. Here beside me. Waiting for me to wake up along the others.
I have this weird feeling in my stomach. A painful swirling. My heart started to beat twice as my normal heartbeat.
"N-no, jisoo. He left you. He left us, and never said a word nor a clue where he went. He threw his old number away. He deactivated all his accounts. He cut our connections." Seungcheol's words just... just made my heart broke into the littlest pieces and my tears started to fall down nonstop.
Yeah, I'm awake. Yeah, I'm healed, but my heart isn't. It was worse than having lung cancer. I wish I had it back. I wish I could bring back the time with him. I felt anger. I felt pain. I wanted to search for him. I wanted to scream.
But its better if I hid my emotions in front of my friends. I endured the pain I felt every chemo, right? I endured my difficulty in breathing, right? Then it's possible to hide my emotions in front of my friends, RIGHT? No. You just cried in front of them, jisoo. Don't be stupid.
Where could he be? Is he eating on the right time ? Is he eating a lot? Who is he with? Is he taking good care of himself? Why? Why did he leave me without a word? Am I that awful for him to leave me? Am I not enough? Is my love not enough? Why do I even care if he doesn't?
At least he took the ring with him, rig—
"He only left this." Wonwoo handed me the ring jeonghan owned.
oh.
While having a great laugh with my friends, I was making a plan in my head. Planning to escape from this painful white walls and disguting sickly scent that made me wanna vomit.
