"What the heck, Yoon Jeonghan?! What are you doing to yourself! You know I hate it when you hurt yourself. I told you to take good care of yourself. You're the most precious angel I need. Don't hurt yourself please."
"Jisoo? You're awake? Since when? How lonf have I slept? Did I sleep for long?"
Jeonghan opened his eyes, it was just a dream. He's in the hospital, all eyes on him. All of his friends are there, even his mother and father.
"A-are you okay, Jeonghan?" His mother spoke up first.
"Auntie, uncle, can we have a moment with him?" Seungcheol asked Jeonghan's parents.
"Sure thing." And the both of his parents left the room.
"Jeonghan. Sit up. And fix yourself. I want you to calm down fir—"
"I dreamt about Jisoo, guys!" Jeonghan spoke happily.
Jihoon looked at Seungcheol sadly.
"Calm yourself down first, Jeonghan please. I want you to calm yourself down, before we speak. We have some news for you." Jihoon calmed him down and let his sit comfortably.
"Okay, Jeonghan. Look... Jisoo... something happened to him—"
"WHAT?! I got to go to him! He needs me, Jihoon! Please—" All of them stopped him. And gave him some water and let him calm himself for the hundredth time.
"Nobody is allowed to visit him, at this moment Jeonghan. Please. Just think positive. He'll be fine. Rememver what I told you? He'll be fine and just think positive. Talking about, positively... WHY DID YOU CUT YOURSELF DID YOU KNOW YOU ALMOST LOST YOUR LIFE?!" Seungcheol started to raise his voice.
"Okay, okay. Look, choi seungcheol, i am fine now. See? Nothing to worry about. Besides, that's how I relieve my stress. And why am I even admitted her, when on the other hand I'm fine as heck?" Jeonghan told them.
Chan pinched Jeonghan. "Aah!" Jeonghan screamed. "Why'd you do that, chan? That hurts!" Jeonghan complained.
"I hate you hyung. Why did you hurt yourself?" Chan asked who is already crying.
"Aww. Our baby's crying. Come here." Jeonghan let him sit down on his bed. "I'llbe fine, channie. You shouldn't be worried. Besides, I'm strong!" Jeonghan insisted.
Chan smiled for a second but it faded. "Why? What's wrong?" Jeonghan asked, worriedly.
"That's what Jisoo hyung told me. He told he was strong. But look at him..." chan started to look down and tears started falling down.
"Shush now, chan. He is strong. Because he's fighting. Something's happening to him right now, because he's strong." Seungcheol told chan. And put chan down his bed, because Jeonghan now, is also crying.
"Do you want us to leave you alone for now?" Soonyoung asked him while rubbing his back.
"No. Please stay. Don't leave me. I don't want to have an unsatifying time by myself. I want to suffer while you guys, are here for me. Thank you. I don't know what to do without you guys." Jeonghan answered immediately.
Seokmin is already crying. But Seungkwan hit his nape. "Ah! What the heck seungkwan?!" He asked caressing his nape.
"You look awful. You're a crybaby. Stop it. Ugh." Seungkwan spoke. Seungkwan cries a lot too, but never showed anybody, well... except for the love of his life who saw him crying for the hundredth time. Seungkwan hates to see seokmin crying. He sometimes say that he looks cute but he sometimes say he looks awful and he needs to stop.
"Soonyoung. Stop your boyfriend." Hansol told Soonyoung.
"What did seokmin ever do to you, seungkwan?" Soonyoung defended his boyfriend.
Seungkwan just crossed his arms and rolled his eyes at the both of them. "Oh shut your dirty mouths." Seungcheol told them, annoyed.
Jeonghan laughed at their silliness. He's happy to see his friends happy. But then after he looked at them, he felt unsatisfied, again. Because Jisoo isn't there with him.
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love letter ; jihan
FanfictionIn where lung cancer patient, Jisoo writes his love letters for his secret crush, Yoon Jeonghan. 180330 - 190407