Untold Truths

UT|14

Chapter fourteen
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||•the decision. common sense •||

It has been a week since visiting the hospital. Everyday was the same-nothing. Just the fooling breathing and machine making noises.

I've read my parents books, but it was like reading to no one. Held their hands but no movements. No smiles, no feelings. I just wanted them to respond back saying they love me too.

Yesterday the doctors said, there was no hope to save them. The thought of pulling the plug is terrifying.

"Fur, I'm so scared, what are we going to do?" She was walking back and forth. She was doing it for the past two days.

I can tell she hadn't been sleeping. I always find myself sleeping in her arms, while Tee and his mom sat on the couch. Uncle T took the family to our house and the four of us stayed back in hospital.

"Moochi, I am too, there's no hope the doctor said so herself. We gotta come up with a decision." I know deep down they're gone I just can't accept it. Miracles can happen...right?

"Fur, we're not unplugging our parents from what might save them."

"Moochi, please think about this. I don't like the thought as much as you. But-" she kneeled down in front of me.

"But nothing. We're going to talk to uncle T, he'll probably have common sense unlike you."

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We went home to where everyone was.
"Ferry is thinking about pulling the plug," I blurted it out and sat on the family table. Everyone gathered themselves on the family table.

Completed family table but incomplete in hearts and reality.

"Your aunty and I have been thinking. As much as this hurt us all, we have to come to a decision."

"I guess y'all think the same after all, no common sense." I said loudly for them to hear.

Or is it me that don't have common sense?

"Some people can survive on life support, even if it takes years. Our parents can be one of those people," I said it calmly this time.

"Their brains are dead Moochi." Ferry held my hands. I looked at her in the eyes.

"Just because you study nursing doesn't make you qualified as one. I need a break from y'all." I got off of the family table to ease myself.

"I'll come with you," Charlie said.

"A break from all y'all. I said what I said." He didn't seemed to listen because he was now following me. "You don't even believe in life support," he mumbled.

"I might seem selfish or even hypocrite but Charlie, those are my parents. Let me hope and pray. Maybe just maybe God will hear my prayers."

"Think about it. Look at the impact this is having on all of us. Ferry hasn't been eating or sleeping. She loves them as much as you do. There's nothing anyone, even the doctors can do about it. They're gone Moochi."

Maybe he was right. Am I forcing it? Aren't I allowed to be selfish, hypocrite and even have no common sense?

The family were sitting in the same spot where Charlie and I left them. No one was talking. Everyone were in silence.

"Tomorrow, I want a last look at them,"I said.

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