Untold Truths

UT|15

Chapter fifteen
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||•Goodbye Mama and Pops•||

All my parents ever wanted was for us to be happy. But I forgot about their happiness. They were busy running around to provide for us but I couldn't spare time to spend with them. Today is the day I say goodbye to them.

"Now it's too late Mama, I took you and Pops for granted. I don't know why I thought you guys were always gonna be here and forgot that life was short."

I don't know how me and, Ferry are going to cope with this.

Losing both parents had to be the most horrible thing to go through.

It sucks. It bites. It tears. It's unfair

"Pops, I didn't want to accept the fact that one day I might eventually lose you due to your sickness. I didn't know I would lose both you and mum this soon. I hope you forgive me—I hope you and mum can forgive me wherever you both are."

I sat in silence not knowing whether to cry, not that any tears were coming or to leave and be depress elsewhere. Hundred percent of my body had given up emotionally, mentally and physically.

Ferry needed me and I had to find her wherever she was. She can't go through this alone especially knowing how my grieving and hers are different.

We lost a close family member two years ago. Mary was her name but we called her Mimi. She was the first daughter of uncle T who our parents visit—used to visit now. My uncle—my dad's brother and his family are the only family members we have in Burnia. 

When Mimi passed away, Ferry lost her best friend, sister and a cousin. Mimi was the person she trusted so much with her life. She was her other half. Losing Mimi messed with her brain. She went numb and couldn't speak or eat for weeks.

I know for a fact, she was going to break down considering she had lost both her parents. Mainly when she was blaming herself for making the call.

Necessarily I don't know if I was mad at her or pissed. But I felt angry. She made a call too early. Then again she knew more than me. I don't know but we're both just miserable together. I'm her for her of course.

"I've said my goodbyes." Ferry tried to talk to me but I brushed her off. I couldn't do it. I couldn't face her. I just wanted to go home. There's nothing here for me. I went home. Whatever happened after I left, that was for the decision makers.

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People banging on my door and messaging me everyday. I wasn't interested. I wanted to be left alone.

Day 1:
"Moochi please we need to talk and I need you to eat something. Come out so we can deal with this as a family. Baby I love you. I'll be waiting downstairs if you decide to come. I promise I'll do the listening, just talk to me. Or I'll do the talking and you'll do the listening." Ferry begged.

Ferry kept coming every one hour. I don't want to see her. Why can't people take hints.

Day 2:
"Princess it's Tee, I just came by to see how you are. Ferry said you haven't left your room since yesterday. I brought you your favourite snacks and food. Come out please."

At this point, the only person I would open the door for was Jesus. None of those people was him.

Day 3:
"Fen Fen, you don't have to face this tragedy alone. I am here for you and so is everyone else that loves you. Baby please you're breaking my heart come outside. Come outside and yell, eat or just say something." Mrs Brown cane to talk some sense into me I guess. I really didn't want to face any of them.

Day 4:
My uncle and his family came. They tried the same method but didn't get a respond. Also Nick , Keke and Sam came.  I wanted to be left alone like I've been dating. It shouldn't be a crime at all.

Space was all I needed but people did not want to allow it.
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