Hers 2 (Ruby Rose)

16| Wherever You Go

A/N

Mentally prepare yourself for this chapter. Important A/N at the end. ❤️

I CROSSED MY legs as I listened to the phone ring, my eyes watching pedestrians passing the cafe. I shook my foot vigorously, trying to not be so anxious. My breathing hitched when the call went through.

"Hello?" He said. It sounded like he was outside, as the wind blew against the phone speaker.

"Matthew," I breathed, my heart pounding in my throat.

"Ellis?" He said after a moment.

"Yeah, it's me. Hi,"

"Are you okay?"

Tears welled up in my eyes, and I bit hard on my bottom lip.

"I thought I would be able to do this. I'm so sorry."

"Ellis, wait-" I hung up, pressing my elbows onto the surface of the table and holding the back of my phone to my lips. What the fuck did I just do?

I needed to get out of there.

My phone buzzed, indicating that I had received a message. It was from Matthew, telling me to answer him. Panicked, I blocked his number.

I left before the waitress could even take my order. I walked home, although it took me an hour. I needed to clear my head.

I could hear Heaven barking when I walked up the driveway towards the front door. I tried to smile at her, as if she would understand. I fumbled with the keys and opened up to a silent house. Ruby must still be asleep.

I dropped the keys on the coffee table and walked towards the bedroom.

The sheets on the bed were a mess and there was no body in it. Of course she didn't make the bed. She never did. She said it was pointless because you'd mess it up again at the end of the night.

I picked up the pillow that was on the floor and tossed it onto the bed. I heard a thump, but it wasn't from the pillow. I froze like a deer in headlights, listening again. My ears started ringing.

As soon as another noise invaded my ears, I bolted towards the ensuite.

When I opened the door, Ruby looked as shocked as I was. We were on the same page, having not known we were both home. The only difference was that Ruby was standing on the edge of the bathtub, with a rope around her neck.

For a few seconds I thought I was dreaming. I was not seeing this.

But when she spoke, I realized it was very much real.

"Get out," she croaked, her eyes entirely bloodshot.

My entire body went numb, but I somehow still managed to move. I ran out of there, straight into the kitchen where I pulled out the drawer containing utensils. The drawer came unhinged, falling to the floor with a loud bang. I picked a knife and ran back to the bathroom before Ruby could finish tying the end of the rope to the shower curtain pole.

"What are you doing?" She asked, her voice barely there. She looked awful. She already looked lifeless.

"If you go, then so do I." I pressed the tip of he knife against my breastbone.

Ruby stared at me with blank eyes, her lips chapped and parted.

"Get down." I said, my voice firm.

Ruby didn't budge. She still continued to stare at me as if she was already gone.

"Ruby, you don't understand." My voice rocked. "I have nothing, nothing, left if I lose you too."

Please, God, please.

I watched as her lips started to tremble and she closed her eyes. Tears began streaming down her pale cheeks. Her hands loosened around the rope before falling to her sides.

I dropped the knife with a clank and reached up to remove it from around her neck. It took me three attempts to get it over her head from such a height. My arms wrapped around her waist and I held her for a long time, letting her tears land on the top of my head.

We stayed like that for a while.

"Ellis," I heard her say suddenly. I slowly looked up at her. "You've given me a reason to live."

A/N

This honestly hurt me so much to write. I know I've said this plenty of times before but I'll say it again and I'll continue to say it. I am here for every single one of you. I don't care how big or how small your problems are. I am open to talking to anyone of you if you ever need or if you ever feel like doing something to yourself. Please don't take any ideas from this story. I really want you to know that people do care about you, I care about you. I don't care if you think I don't because I don't know you, because you're wrong. I do care. I care about everyone, whether I know them or not.

I love you guys so much, and I never thought I would have any love for strangers. But I do because you guys make me happy. Without you realising it, you guys have helped me and I hope I can help you too.

💗 Cambry