Trigger warning for me being anxious about shit?
so I'm really sad and nervous. just thought you should know. everything is falling apart. shit. ugh now I'm crying (shut up shut up shut up). my breaths are shakey and I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't think I can do it. shit shit shit shit shit. oh god help me. I'm not crying any more. I never even was I just thought I would. I was hoping I would (shut up). I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this I hate this. I hate how the words I'm typing are lining up because it's fucking annoying. I don't know what the fuck to do with myself! I'm just lying in bed like nothing is wrong. nothing is wrong. fucking hell man. this is. this is bad. is it gonna happen? is she right? are we actually in trouble here? am I gonna be torn apart from my family? who the fuck knows. it's just waiting waiting waiting but WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE WAITING FOR? WHAT IS EVEN GOING TO HAPPEN? FUCKING HELL. I just want to scream. oh god. this is rough. this is really, really rough. I'm so angry but I just don't have the energy anymore. I need a hug (shut your goddamn stupid mouth). shit shit shit shit shit shit shit. I have to stop before the words line up again in a pattern. what am I gonna do?
