Trigger warning for, you guessed it, my friends leaving me, transphobia a little bit minor mentions, me being sad
had a friend (fuck it hurts to say had) that identified as gender fluid for a while and changed her name. Her parents weren't very supportive and wouldn't address her correctly (she didn't feel comfortable with she/her at the time but does now). Anyway, she was my best friend, honestly, it was stupid of me to get so attached, we only started hanging out in late April I guess. Her parents hated me originally apparently, they decided I was 'influencing her' to be genderfluid, bullshit, we became friends AFTER she came out. Last month, she decided she was actually cis (totally fine btw like phases are okay.) We used to sneak out at night and stuff and recently (we'll call her.. Molly) molly decided she wanted to shave the sides of her head. Her dad didn't want her too and she asked if she could meet up with me and he said no. She decided she would anyway and just left a note on her bed. She came over, we went to Morrisons and got me some hairdye and she got a call from her dad, he obviously was pissed and wanted her back. He picked her up while we were walking back. Two days later, I get texts from molly saying that she can't be friends with me anymore because her parents won't let her. They won't fucking let her. I was essentially, heartbroken, as stupid as it sounds. I'm a fucking WIMP, OKAY? I trust people too easily and I get attached and I love someone and then BAM they're just gone from my life in a second.
You're probably wondering how I reacted? My answer:
I sucked it up and moved on
Jk, I'm not that cool.
No, I cried for about an hour and drew depressing art and cried some more and didn't go to sleep until 2am. Even though I had my end of year exam for the performing arts this morning.
I'm so depressed I fucking hate myself I'm sorry.
Also got pushed around and made fun of by people in the year above me who I don't even know twice today. One in the lunch line, to which the dinner lady smiled at me sympathetically but didn't actually do anything. And then on the way home too, to which I told them to fuck off and that they weren't funny.
Also, have people spreading rumours about me. Fucking sucks.
And.now I'm crying again life is hard guys. Life is hard.
