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last couple of days

Right so I've missed a couple of days as I've been busy or just too lazy to do it aha.

So the last couple of days a couple of things happened.

A 'friend ' threw ice cream over me and kept taking mug shots of me (taking a photo of me when I don't know that they are).

started talking to Andrew, one of the boys that were saying stuff to me on ask.fm.

Kylie had ago at me because I don't like her boyfriend, Mark. that was today.

Cried everyday. Felt like doing it everyday. Managed to stop myself from doing it.

Haven't done it for about a week now I think :)

So today I started talking to one of the boys that were on my ask.fm, Andrew, not the one who had ago at me.

I'm not that close with him but we talk a little. I've known him for years and I have never been able to stay mad at him for a long time.

I only speak to him if i have to. I still feel really awkward talking to him because I don't know if he actually likes me or not. In person he seems like he does and on ask.fm it seems like he doesn't. so i have no idea.

Then on the way home today I walked with Mark and Kylie. who is/was my friend.

While we were walking they didn't speak to me at all.

He took a photo of me and posted it on Twitter. I was nearly in tears when he took the photo. I didn't know he took it and luckily you can't see my face properly thanks to my hair.

He then commented on the photo. "happy jade there"

After he left to go home me and Kylie walked home.

On the way she asked why I wasn't speaking to him so I told her that he really really hurt me.

She then went on to say that he didn't say the meanest things.

i told her that I kind of expected it from the boy who I'm starting to talk to. I didn't tell him, he saw them.

But Mark,the boy who hates me told me that I could trust him and that he wouldn't judge me and he wouldn't tell anyone. I was stupid enough to believe him. I trusted him.

Then not long later he brakes his promise. He told people,  he said all that to me on ask.fm.

He hurt me more because I told him and I trusted him. I didn't tell Andrew, he just seen them in music, he didn't promise anything to me.

Yes it hurt that he said all that to me but it didn't hurt as much as the other did.

So now me and the Kylie aren't speaking.

Just shows that people can hurt you emotionally. Their words hurt like daggers.

You have to ignore the people who are trying to bring you down.

You have to not let them know they are getting to you.

Be careful with the people you trust.

if anyone needs someone to talk to, I'm always happy and here to help everyone. Weather it's to moan, have a rant,  ask questions, or just need someone to talk to. I'm here for you. :)

Stay Strong Beautiful People ♡ ♥ I love you all :) xx