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Hate

While you suffer a mental illness or you self harm and people know about you might recieve hate.

Some people might be lucky and not recieve any or just a little, but then there are the others who recieve loads.

I'm one of those people who are recieveing plenty of hate. You can recieve hate by someone telling you to your face or a friend telling you what someone has said, over the internet, phone, text, email and there are probably other ways.

No matter what you get hate for it still hurts all the same, they may not mean to be nasty but if you read it that way and take it as hate, then it probably is hate.

As i said before that people know i cut they have started using code words for the word cutting, they are calling it playing the violin.

Some people have said things like "you know that girl that plays the violin,  yeah, well she's a bitch" and they say more thing like that.  You may think i might have just made that up but i haven't. My friends in school say things like that when i'm around. i only know that playing the violin means cutting because someone slipped up and said who. So they one who was telling the person done the action playing the violin but on the wrist.

Sad thing is, is that they are my friends.

i'm still friends with them but not as close. I have one best friend, Natalie who has stayed by me through everything. She's amazing, she's the only one i tell everything to and i can trust her with everything. She hasn't told anyone anything i have told her and i am very grateful to have her as a friend.

We have both gone through similar things with depression and self harm. She had gone through it a while ago and has now stopped harming herself. We weren't that close when she started selfharmig.

I have only known her for 4 years i think and she is my best friend. i'm still friends with the friends i made when i was younger but i feel closer to the friend i made 4 years ago.

There are plenty of people who recieve hate and some of which may selfharm because of it. But the reason they send hate to you is because they are jealous of you or your life is perfect in their eyes or they are being bullied themselves.

If people talk about you behind your back it just means you're in front of them and you're better than them.

Stay Strong Beautiful People :)

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