Spilled Tea

Every Single Star

I told her that
"I'd steal every single star
if you wish it."
She said she loves me,
"but not like that."

Love is my main weakness,
although that is my decision.
I follow blindly
the desires of my heart
and I'm weak
from every single thing
they tell me.

Life is like a rollercoaster;
it is thrilling,
but I'm desperately
searching for fun
in every corner.
I'm crushing under
the weight of time
when it forces
the road to split.

You showed up
without a warning
and you seem like you're
going to be another ghost.
I'm searching
for ways to somehow
blur you out of my brain.
Most importantly, my heart.

Oh, pretty hope
in my head for my future,
did we miss a step?
If we did,
she makes
the view here
look beautiful.
She is so beautiful,
you are so beautiful.

I wish changing minds
was as simple as
the constant changing
of these shirts.
I'm uncomfortable now
and it feels strangely
like the need to strip away
the inevitability of some new
kind of destruction.

It's not okay, it's not,
but I am stronger now
and I think that you
will be easier to brush
away if I need to.
I enjoy my own company
but sometimes the lonely
is haunting.

I told her that
"I'd steal every single star
if you wish it."
She said she loves me,
"but not like that."

I replied that I hope
that he will
"give her the universe."

Out of Nowhere // Seafret