Blue Moon {ON HOLD}

Chapter 4 ~

Nina's POV

"Nina-chan! I missed you so much!"

Sinalubong ako ni Yuri tapos niyakap ng sobrang higpit.

Sayuri Yamamoto, my step sister. She's a year younger than me pero 2nd year high school na rin siya. She's the only daughter of Tita Hana. They were my second family and kahit na di nila ako kaano-ano, they treated me like I'm part of their own. Close kami ni Yuri though she's staying with Tita Hana sa Japan. Pumupunta lang siya dito to para magbakasyon.

May family business rin sila na cafe na malapit sa bahay na tinitirhan namin. Tita Hana's younger sister na si Tita Haru yung nagmamanage nung cafe. Kapag hindi gaanong busy sa school, tumutulong din ako kay Tita Haru sa cafe. 

"Where's Tita Hana?"

"She headed to a business meeting with Mrs. Janelle Favilla. You know her, she's a business addict."

Nosebleed na talaga ako ngayon. Sobrang quota na ako. Una si Natalie tapos ngayon naman itong kapatid ko. Kakaloka.

"I'll prepare for our dinner. You should be studying."

"I'll help you Yuri. It's my duty anyway."

"But I insist."

Wala na akong nagawa kundi pagbigyan na lang siya or else hindi na kami matatapos sa pagtatalo. Sinimulan ko na lang ayusin yung mga naresearch ko sa bahay nila Jarell kanina. 

She prepared some Japanese dishes. We ate our dinner while sharing lots and lots of stories. Medyo matagal na din kasi yung huli nilang punta ni Tita Hana dito. I really missed my best friend at the same time my sister. Pero hinding hindi mawawala sa isip ko si Lauren, my real little sister na sobrang namimiss ko na. I don't even know where to find her but I hope she's doing fine.

Ako na yung naghugas ng mga pinagkainan namin para makapagpahinga naman siya. Yuri was taking her shower kaya after kong mag-ayos sa kitchen, inayos ko naman yung higaan namin ni Yuri. 

After ko magshower, nakita ko siya na sobrang himbing na natutulog kaya I opened the night lamp na may shape na turtle tapos may butas butas na mga stars. Nagkaroon tuloy ng effects na stars sa buong room namin. Since tapos ko naman ng ayusin yung mga research kanina ta hindi pa ako inaantok, I decided to go at the nearby park. Lagi akong tumatambay dito kasi sobrang relaxing and konti na lang yung pumupunta dito pag gabi.

Umupo ako sa may swing and stared at the night sky. Memories started to drown my thoughts. Parang kahapon lang nangyari pero sa totoo lang, ilang taon na rin ang lumipas. I'm trying my best to move on but it'll always remain as a scar of my past. I can clearly remember kung paano nilamon ng apoy ang lahat lahat ng meron ako. My parents died because of that accident. We lost our house, wealth, family, dreams, and even my will to live. In short, we lost everything.

Lauren and I was sent to Hope Orphange, a foundation sponsored by private companies. 6 months akong nag psychological therapy. Hindi talaga ako makapagmove on... Hindi ko pa kayang tanggapin lahat. Gusto ko na rin mamatay. Para saan pa at naiwan pa akong buhay dito? I don't deserve this things but then I realized na hindi ako nag-iisa, I still have my sister but she was already adopted.

Feeling ko pinaglalaruan na lang ako ng mundo. Kung kelan nakahanap na ako ng reason para mabuhay, saka naman yun nawala. Bakit ba lagi na lang akong iniiwan? It took me forever to recover. Lalo lang lumala yung depression ko kaya kailangan ko pa ulit magtherapy. I felt lonely. I thought I was alone. Ayoko na, masyado ng masakit that's why I tried to run away.

Takbo lang ako ng takbo until my feet were numb and I could hardly breathe. "Why is the world so cruel? Can somebody just take away the pain." I have always thought.

I treasured everything pero nawala na ang lahat in just merely seconds. I was alive but dead, it was painful. I wanted to scream but no one will listen. No one will understand. I thought I was the most unlucky person until I met him.

 

One cold night in December, Hope orphanage was celebrating a Christmas party sponsored by a well-known family. Birthday rin kasi yun ng bunsong anak na lalaki nung nagsponsor. Every orphan was required to dress up nicely. Invited rin kasi yung mga business partners nila para mas dumami pa ang tutulong sa Hope.

Nina was silently staring at everyone. "They seemed so happy." She thought. She felt that she doesn't belong. Lumabas siya sa party venue. No one noticed her except for a guy with the same age as hers. He was bored to death so he decided to follow Nina. Takbo lang ng takbo si Nina thinking that the best solution for her problem was to run away. She could hardly breathe, she's dead tired but she continued running away until she fell down. Tears streamed down her face.

"Hey! Are you alright?"

The little guy asked her.

"Do I look okay?"

"I'm sorry."

Kumuha siya ng panyo sa bulsa niya and started to wipe away her tears.

"You know what, it's not good to see girls crying so please stop crying."

"But it hurts so much!"

"Where does it hurt?"

Nina pointed her heart and continued crying her heart out. Di niya na alam kung paano siya pahihintuin sa pag-iyak. He just found himself hugging her... Hoping he could somewhat ease the pain. She calmed down a bit and hugged him back.

"Everyone gets hurt. No one's an exemption."

Nina realized na tama yung sinabi nung batang lalaki sa kanya. Lahat tayo nadadapa, nasa sa atin na yun kung tatayo ka at magsimulang maglakad ulit or kung hahayaan mo na lang yung sarili mo na lamunin ng lungkot ang puso mo.

He helped her stood up, she stoped crying. She promised herself to be strong enough to face reality. He gave her hope to live without realizing it.

"Nina?"

A familiar voice said.

"Are you crying?"

He asked tapos lumapit siya sa akin.

Kinapa ko yung mukha ko. Di ko na pala namalayan na umiiyak na naman ako. Pinunasan niya yung mga luha ko.

"Don't cry. I hate seeing girls crying infront of me. Tsaka pumapanget ka lalo. Alam mo yun, panget na nga mas pumapanget pa."

Akala ko naman ay bumait na tong Jarell na 'to. Nagawa pa niya akong asarin.

"Bakit ka nandito?"

"Napadaan lang, nagpapabili kasi si Yvette ng snacks."

Marami kasing bilihan ng pakain na nakapaligid dito sa may playground.

"Umuwi ka na. Gabi na."

"Alam ko. Ikaw rin umuwi ka na. Masamang iniiwan ng mag-isa si Yvette sa bahay niyo."

May inabot siya sakin sabay naglakad na paalis. Nagsimula na rin akong naglakad pauwi. Tinignan ko kung ano yung binigay niya. Pocky na strawberry flavor tsaka yung panyo niya. Hindi ko na naiwasan na hindi ngumiti dahil sa binigay niya. Kahit papano gumaan na yung feelings ko. Thanks to him.

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June 28, 2014