Angel's pov
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"What are your plans for the weekend?" Chance asks me as I sit in my usual spot at the lunch table. Ethan and Grayson both look up, passing me smiles, then proceeding to eat their lunches.
"I don't have any." I shrugged it off and opened my brown paper bag, pulling out the half of a sandwich I put in there this morning.
Grayson reached his hand across the table and tapped his finger on the back of my hand, trying to get my attention. I looked at him, my hands opening the zip-lock bag the sandwich was in.
"Why so little?" He signed, I shrugged and looked at my sandwich again.
"Just not hungry, I guess." I answered, taking a bite. He furrowed his eyebrows and nodded.
Yesterday, after I just went to sleep, Grayson had continued to text me. He wasn't being rude or nagging on the situation, but he was letting me know he was upset that I got into a fight with Tess. He didn't seem mad or upset this morning when we were all hanging out before first period, but maybe he was hiding it. In fourth period he tried to come over to talk to me, but Vanessa sucked him into a conversation. I didn't mind, I just did my work and left when the bell rang.
I'm not quite sure if he and I are a thing still. I mean, when we left class he didn't try to hold my hand like usual, or kiss me when we parted ways before first period. I know I told myself to not over think it, but I'm beginning to.
I've never been in a real, solid relationship. I've had three different hookups, thats it. I've never loved anyone. I never even thought I could develop feelings for someone, because I never had before. No matter how hard I tried— I just couldn't feel that way. I don't know if it was because I have a picky taste when it comes to guys, or if it's because I just don't like the feeling of relationships. But Grayson.. he made it different. He made me feel happy, and I genuinely caught feelings for him. Maybe I fell too hard, too fast. Maybe it's fate that I should remain single.
"Whats got you so absorbed today?" Ethan asked, leaning across the table so I could hear his whisper. I looked at him and then at Grayson who was staring at me.
"Oh- uh. I don't know, really." I answered. He furrowed his eyebrows along with Grayson and nodded his head towards the door. Grayson raised an eyebrow at me, I nodded and threw my stuff away. I followed the boys out of the cafeteria, not answering Vanessa when she asked us where we were going.
We walked around the almost vacant hallways. There were a few couples around the school who were sucking each others faces off, but other than them, the halls were empty. Ethan soon found a "reason" to leave Grayson and I alone, which made me feel super awkward.
Once Ethan was completely out of sight, I pulled out my phone. I was trying to look busy, so I didn't have to just try to keep a conversation with Grayson. But Grayson stopped me. He took my phone and slid it into the front pocket of his jeans. I sighed and looked at him.
"Why would you do that?" I asked, he just smiled and grabbed ahold of my hand. "I thought this was over?" I asked him, he looked at me confused and dropped my hand gently.
"Why would you think that?" He signed. It's crazy how fast I've learned sign language. I mean, he does sign slower when signing to me so I can really read it, but its still weird how I know how to communicate so easily with someone who doesn't speak.
