Dare To Be Yours

Chapter 3: The past behind us

Yo's POV

I stretched out a hand towards him with a polite smile.

"It's nice to see you back, P'Pha." I said.

He awkwardly grip my hand and shook it. I pulled away immediately afterwards. I bent down to grab my phone and I'm glad it's still in one piece and has no obvious damage to it. P'Pha and P'Forth were just standing silently, watching my every move. I cleared my throat.

"Well, I'm sorry for what happened. I wasn't looking where I'm going." I apologized to them. "I'm actually in a rush so I better leave you guys now."

Without hearing their replies, I waied and continued my way to descend the stairs and exited the building. I quickly looked for P'Beam's car and got inside. I checked myself in the mirror and I could see the hint of fluster on my face. Who wouldn't be flustered in that kind of situation? Two handsome guys just happened to appear in front of me, and I even bumped to one of them. It was quite embarrassing actually. Then I saw the man I once had a crush on. After three whole years, I finally saw him again. And I think I'm glad I did. He looks better, happier. And I haven't felt anything towards him too. No hate, no fear, no embarrassment, no frantic heartbeats. I finally felt at peace. And now I think, I could already put the past behind me.

===Flashback===

"Hey Kit, I think I'm finally ready to confess to him." I said as I stood in front of my best friend with my handwritten letter and the velvet box that contains my gift on my hands.

He just sighed at me and gave me a look from head to toe.

"Go ahead then you're good to go." he said as he gave my shoulders a reassuring tap and squeeze. He smiled at me, showing his dimples that I really love. That makes it all the more comforting.

I left him then and went towards P'Pha's classroom. I have been crushing on him since the first time that I saw him. I think it has been three years since then? I'm not sure because time flies so fast and I really don't pay attention much on the days that I've been crushing on him. What's more important to me is that my feelings are true and now I'm ready to tell him about it.

I happily walked towards the room and I'm quite glad the school is almost empty by this time. Today's the last day of classes for this school year and it would be quite a couple of months again till I see P'Pha so now is really a good time to confess. As I got closer to the room, I could hear some guys talking inside. Then I heard P'Pha speak, trying to refute a claim.

"Why the fuck do you keep on mentioning that I like that kid?!" he exclaimed furiously. "I'm not gay and I'm not into guys."

I could hear my heart breaking and the pieces are scattered right in front of me. Tears are starting to pool in my eyes and before I could do something I might regret, I ran away. I didn't show myself to Kit anymore and told him that I would be going home alone. Kit didn't refused but he promised to see me the next day.

I went home with a broken heart and I was glad the ordeal was quick. I wasn't even able to embarrass myself which is a good thing. It's just a shame though that I wouldn't get to tell him my feelings. I guess he's really out of my reach, and I really shouldn't be wishing for great things such as him. I might be hurting for this kind of rejection, and I think it might take a while but I guess it's time for me to start moving on.

When the school year opened, I didn't see P'Pha anymore. I heard he left for America. I think I prefered it that way. With him gone, I wouldn't see much of his face around. It would be easier for me to move on. I still have Kit beside me to keep on cheering me up too. But since then, I promised myself to forget him. It won't do well for me to keep on holding on to him. Who knows, there might be someone else who's waiting out there for me.