The Falling Stars

⋆𝘛𝘩𝘦 𝘛𝘳𝘶𝘵𝘩⋆

"I'm a brave, strong and independent girl.

Who's strong enough to face this world.

So all the things you do and all the things you say,

Don't even reach me and just put you to shame.

I'm done holding it in,

You say everything I do is a sin.

Shed those tears created from a drama in your head,

I'm sorry, but this isn't what I look for in a friend."

That's what I said right?

While you held each other's arms tight.

I'd rather not give into your antics,

And be with people who turn things into politics.

I'm happy I did what I did,

And I'm happy I said what I said,

But I wanted you to know how I felt.

And it's not something I would normally tell.

So here's the truth, all secrets unveiled,

Washing away all the rumors that prevailed.

Tearing down any trace of a brave face,

Here's what I've always wanted to say.

I'm hurt. Though I can't imagine being with you,

It hurts when I see you together, though I play it cool.

It ruins my day  to know that there'd be no one for me

Because you talk rot about me to everybody.

I'm still terrified right now, after all this time,

Walking into welcoming arms, armed with knives.

Because I know you'll be there, ruining my name.

Because to you, I'm just a pawn in your petty game.

I'm scared, I know I can't move on,

The ink staining my pages shall last for long.

As will the words scribbled on the walls,

Stained by your horrifying threats and taunts.

I've done enough wrong, let me start anew.

Let me start afresh, instead of making false rumors seem true.

Instead of whispering things in a stranger's ear.

And help them make me spill another tear.

I don't know if I'll come out of this feeling fine.

I don't know if I've been fine all this time.

But I know, there'll be so many who'll smile.

And say, "Stay in your sty, you pathetic swine."

There'll be more whispers,

And the stares I receive will be bitter.

I don't if I'm being brave, or if I'm far too weak.

But I'm afraid, so please, let someone save me.

~ LonelyComets

17.05.18

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i'm so scared right now oml. i don't even know what to do with myself anymore and i think i just agreed to go through another two years of constant taunts and whispers and stares and i really dont want to go through that anymore... especially if it's from the same people/person (which it is) idk if i'm even making sense ahhh i'm screwed

//edit:- hehehe lol this was me days before starting off at my new school

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