The Falling Stars

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Dream.

That's what everyone tells me to do.

That's what will help me get on a move.

That's what's helping the others too.

They're all ahead, doing well for themselves.

Or doing something, in order to get better.

They're all keeping up, with the world that's getting faster.

They've found their dream, their will; and they'll hustle harder.

And I often hear,

"You're old enough, you should have a dream by now."

"You see... if you'd worked hard, you'd be somewhere else right now."

"You're too lazy, you don't move your bloody ass from the ground."

"You can't do it. All you do is go further down."

And you, oh Lords you,

You think I don't all know this?

Do you really think I don't know all of this?

Didn't you ever consider that something might be wrong?

And you should know, there is something that is actually wrong.

I know,

I'm a sore loser.

And I'll let you know why.

I DON'T DREAM.

I don't have a dream.

I don't have something that drives me.

I can't keep up with this fast paced world, only meant for the "busy bees"

Is there no room for people like me?

I'm probably the only one who's living so aimlessly.

Still, do I not deserve a life?

Do I really not deserve a life?

I'd love to speak.

Oh, I'd really love to say;

"I feel terrible, without anything fueling me."

"I feel terrible, without a dream."

"I feel terrible, because without a dream, I can't work hard."

But no, I never spoke.

Because who out of all you people would understand?

Who out of you people, who have plans and goals, would understand?

And now, I'll hear,

"Everything will become fine"

Everything will become fine?

When?

"When you're thirteen, you have to decide, you'll know by then"

  In two years you'll be in ninth, you'll know by then."  

 "In two years you'll be in tenth, you'll know by then."  

"In two years you'll be in eleventh, you'll know by then."

"In two years you'll be in twelfth, you'll know by then."

"In two years you'll be in college, you'll know by then."

.....Yeah, I don't believe it either.

It's awful okay? It awful.

I have so much time, and I do nothing.

I can't do anything, I won't do anything.

I really don't even know how to try.

Dream.

Consider it a luxury to have one.

Because if you happen to be like me,

That's it, your life is done.

You can't do what you hate,

You can't do something you like,

And, if you have nothing to like.

Then what's even the point of life.

But I guess I'm stuck here,

A lost, clueless lamb in a crowd of wolves.

A lost, clueless girl; who's been forced into a race.

And, let's just forget about her keeping pace okay?

Because, gee, just look at her won't you?

She doesn't even know where's the start.

~LonelyComets

14.04.15 to ??

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Probably what I've been trying to say, for idek how long. So Mom and Dad, my dear family, friends, TEACHERS and lovely people.... I'm NOT whatever you've been saying. I just don't know what to do :)

(you have no idea, how different this is compared to my initial draft... so much whatsapp language has been eliminated XD)

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