The Falling Stars

⋆𝘐'𝘮 𝘈𝘧𝘳𝘢𝘪𝘥⋆

I'm afraid.

The next step may crack the glass I stumble over,

And the step after that may cause it to shatter and break.

I'm afraid.

Alternating screams echoing in the wake of dawn.

And when the amber Sun sleeps, the screams don't fade.

I'm afraid,

Of tears, that bleed out like wounds from your eyes.

The tears of someone who wiped mine away.

I'm afraid.

I can tell, the fissures within are starting to show.

But I'm selfish, so please remain calm for my sake.

I'm afraid.

I know it's my fault I feel so unstable.

But for now, you will bear the choke-hold of my blame.

I'm afraid.

Does it show? I'm trying very hard to appear calm?

When every piece of me is going insane?

I'm afraid.

The plastic I conceal underneath my skin,

Is starting to melt from all the heat and pain.

I'm afraid.

I don't know if I'm the same girl I was

She seemed a lot stronger yesterday.

I'm afraid.

I don't know if I'm being too dramatic.

Or if I'm playing like a puppet in my own game.

I'm afraid.

I don't know if I've been through enough

To wonder if I will ever be saved.

I'm afraid.

I can't be...how can I be?

Aren't I supposed have be brave?

I'm afraid.

The life in me, slowly turning to ashes and dust.

As my sleep slowly slips away.

I'm afraid.

I can't fix the mess I made.

The poison I spilt is bound to stain.

I'm afraid.

That there aren't many days left.

Before the monster stops hiding behind my face.

I'm afraid.

You'll be happy if you leave

And then the Sun won't shine my way. 

But if you leave, and the Sun won't beam.

The dawn won't bring with it the echoing screams.

And then finally, I guess I won't have to be afraid

Because I fear nothing more than facing another day.

~LonelyComets

25.08.18

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