Is He... Gay!? (boyxboy)

Chapter 21

*James POV*

*Two weeks earlier*

I've been on the phone with Maya for the last two hours getting caught up on all my friends.
It hurts so much knowing I can't be there to witness it in person. She sounds so happy talking about how Kace and Kobe are together now.
How Julia and Dylan decided that they want another person in their relationship and even Grant has a new boyfriend.

Grant has a new boyfriend.

When I found out that Grant has a boyfriend, I nearly died. I cried for nights but eventually knew it was for the best. But I still feel the pain every time I think about his beautiful face.

"James oh my god, you should have seen when Kobe tried to jump over Kace's head and fell straight on his face. I swear that was the funniest thing I've ever seen", she starts to laugh and I just smile.

I miss them so much.

I can't go a day without thinking about all of them.

"Maya, I'm coming back" I say still smiling. She was in the middle of a story and I could tell I shocked her.

"Wait you're what!?" You're coming back!?", she's screaming over the phone almost bursting my eardrum.
"Yes Maya! Shut the hell up!" I say pinching my forehead.

"Well when are you coming back?" She asks.

"I was thinking in the next two weeks or so" I say looking at my nails.

I'm ready to come back now. I've made it clear to myself that Grant is completely off limits. 

When I left, It was hard. I didn't tell anyone I was leaving and my parents weren't ever here so they didn't even notice. I basically ran away from home. The only reason why I haven't been caught is Maya decided to call the school acting like my mother. She said we were going to Paris for a few months and to send all of my schoolwork to her house.

I've been staying with my cousin

 I mean, of course I did go home here and there whenever my parents did decide to go home, but I made sure not to be seen by anyone from school. 

I didn't even allow Maya to come see me; she left my schoolwork on the front step for me.

I left the city and drove around the small towns around us. I met a few nice people and I met a few bad people. 

There was one lady I met who made me realize that I am ready to come back.

"Well, do you love yourself?" She said, handing me my coffee. 

"I mean, I think I do? I don't know.", I respond sipping on the beautiful drink. 

"Once you learn to love yourself, you will understand why Grant loves you. Stop trying to push him away. Even if it is just as friends, he wants to be in your life regardless."

"I can't have him in my life... Ever."

"Then you won't ever be happy", she says then walks away.

I guess I'll never be happy then. I'm okay with that, as long as he's happy.

I sigh, remembering what she told me. 

I will never be happy. She said nothing about being content. 

I'm content with myself knowing that he's moved on. 

Now I can come back. 

"OMG, okay, It has to be a surprise!" She screams in my ear, pulling me from my thoughts. 

"Okay...?"

"You have to come over to my house PALEEEAAASEEEEE!", she still screaming so I place the phone down and put it on speaker, " COME OVER RIGHT NOW JAMES!"

"It's storming out and I don't have the car", I say sitting on the bed.

"I DON'T GIVE A MONKEY'S ASS CRACK IF IT WAS RAINING ACID! GET YOUR CUTE LITTLE SWEET ASS OVER HERE NOW JAMES!!"

I grab a jacket and run to of the house. 

When I arrive at Maya's house I'm soaking wet and my balls are shriveled up. I knock on the door and it's swings open.

Now I have a crying Maya in my arms. 

"James! Omg, I missed you so much baby." She's holding onto me and now we're both standing in the rain. 

I peal her arms from around me and the her into the house. We go upstairs to her room and I instantly start to strip.

"Hey, hey James... shake that ass for some dollars", Maya says, then start throwing dollar bills at me. 

I roll my eyes and laugh, I missed her so much. 

I walk to her and wrap my arms around her. 

"Maya, you know I'm still gay as fuck right?", I say into her hair.

"Yeahhhh James, I know. It was nice pretending to be your girlfriend for a while", she looks up at me, " I wish you could have been my first though. I want someone I could trust."

I look at her. All the way from her toes to the tip of her head. I am attracted to her, she's beautiful. I think she's the only girl I will ever be attracted to. 

I can give her what she wants. If it makes her happy. 

"Maya. Lay on the bed, you can be my first too."