Is He... Gay!? (boyxboy)

Chapter 47

*BAD CONTENT AHEAD*

I don't want this book to just be a lot of laughs and giggles. I want it to portray real life high school relationships... and we all know it isn't sunshine. That is all.

*Grant's POV*

I want to murder James.

I know for a fact that was a hickey on his neck. Wanna know how?

Because I saw him pulling Maya into that classroom and when I had the courage to peek in, all I saw was that huge fucking purple mark on his neck.

Who the fuck has been sucking on my love? It damn sure wasn't me.

I swear I'll beat down anyone who's touched him.

I walk towards class with my hood on so no one will bother me. Before I was able to get inside, someone grabbed my arm and pulled me to the side.

I ripped off my hood ready to punch them.... but I already did.

"Oh hey bro", I said rubbing the back of my head. It's the guy I beat up at the party.

"Yeah, HeY BRo", he responded mockingly.

I figured that wouldn't have worked.

"Okay listen, I'm sorry about hitting you that night. I was overwhelmed and I saw you with James and I lost it".

"Oh James! Yeah it's fine, we already talked about it. He told me why and I forgive you. I just wanted to let you know that if you EVER hurt James again I will personally end you".

I looked up at him, squinting my eyes, "What the fuck are you talking about? I'd never hurt James again. And if YOU come near him I'll personally murder you.", I respond gritting my teeth.

He laughs at that and walks away.

I groan in frustration because I REALLY want to punch him again.

Instead I walk into class and sit at my desk, instantly lowering my head since I know James is in this class. I don't want to see him or speak to him.

After everything we've been through, he does this? He goes out and let another dude suck on his neck. How the fuck did he think that would make things better?

I need to get out of here before I explode all over the place. Omg, Grant you're going to explode.

"Can I go to the bathroom!?", I say loudly and before he could even answer I'm out the door.

I lean against the hallway and slow my breathing. I close my eyes.

Nothing is working. I'm literally seething in anger and I don't know what to do about it.

I sink down tot he floor and put my head in my hands.

"Grant..."

I look up and instantly regret it. James is standing right there in my fucking face saying my name. Why is he even out here? Why the fuck is he bothering me?

"Leave me alone", I respond still trying to calm myself.

"Grant... I need to talk to you. Please baby".

That sets me off.
I stand up slowly and raise my head. I know I look crazy with my wild hair and squinted eyes.

"Baby? You don't get to call me baby. I know what you have to tell me and I don't fucking care. All I want to know is did you fuck him"?

He looks down at his shoes and shake his head. Tears falling onto the tile floor.
But I could care less right now.

"So you fucked some guy and thought that I would be okay with that shit!? YOU LITERA- Omg James please get away from me. GET AWAY FROM ME!", I'm screaming now and the anger built up inside of me is slowly coming out.

"Grant, baby. No... it didn't mean anything. I didn't mean for it to happen! I'm so sorry Grant. I love you, I love you so much a-and I can't lose you.", he says through his sobs. He's on his knees now in front of me. I almost give in. Almost.

Instead, I push him away from me. Hard.

He acids across the hallway and looks at me with shock.

"You didn't mean to do it? Having someone's dick up your ass isn't a fucking accident James. YOU WERE A VIRGIN! I thought I was going to be your first! I thought I was going to make love to you for the first time and make sure you know that I would never hurt you again! Instead you give out to some fucking random fuckboy... who was it?"

"Micah.", he says now folded into his body.

"Who the fuck is-..", his words come flowing back to me.

Yeah me and James already talked about it.

"That kid form the fucking party!? Are you fucking kidding me James? I swear to god don't come near me ever again. I hate you. God, I hate you so much right now".

He gets up and tries to come towards me again.

Instead his face meets my fist. I didn't know it was going to happen until it did.

But I don't stop. I keep punching him because I'm so fucking hurt. Instead of punching him in his beautiful cheating fucking face, I punch his arms and legs over and over. After about a minute or two, I finally stop and I drop to the floor.

Tears are flowing down my face and I know that I've lost him forever now.

"I-I'm sorry Grant", he says through his own sobs but I can barely hear him with the ringing in my ears.

I grab my head and just sit there. I don't know for how long but when I sit back up and check my phone, class is already over.... so is the next period. Thank god this hall has a lot of empty classrooms that aren't in use and a lot of student don't come through here.

The anger that was inside had now dissipated and all I feel is sadness.

I know I'll probably never talk to James again. I know that I probably lost him forever now.

I don't know what's wrong with me. Why have I become so fucking angry all the time lately?

But this wasn't just average anger, he cheated on me with someone he barely knew and that fucking hurts so much.

Was he trying to get me back?

It doesn't even matter now.

He's gone.